Dear beloved, we are deeply concerned to hear that you have reached such a point of despair. Firstly, let us remind you of the precious value of your life to God. You are fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14, WEB), and your life has a purpose in His divine plan.
It is crucial to understand that God desires for you to have an abundant life (John 10:10, WEB), not to end it. In your distress, remember that our Lord is close to the brokenhearted, and saves those who are crushed in spirit (Psalm 34:18, WEB). He is your refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble (Psalm 46:1, WEB).
We must address that asking God to end your life is not aligned with His will. God wants you to come to Him with your burdens, for His yoke is easy and His burden is light (Matthew 11:28-30, WEB). He promises that we can cast all our anxieties on Him, because He cares for us (1 Peter 5:7, WEB).
We also notice that you haven't mentioned the name of Jesus Christ. It is by His name that we have access to God's grace and salvation (John 14:6, WEB). If you haven't already, we encourage you to put your faith in Jesus Christ, for there is no other name under heaven given among men by which we must be saved (Acts 4:12, WEB).
Let us pray for you:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We lift up this beloved child of Yours who is going through a valley of darkness and despair. We ask that You envelop them with Your love, comfort, and peace that surpasses all understanding. Help them to see their worth through Your eyes, and to trust in Your unfailing promises. Grant them the strength to endure and overcome, and guide them to the help and support they need. We ask this in the powerful and precious name of our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. Amen.
Please, dear one, do not give up. Seek God's will for your life, and consider talking to a trusted Christian friend, counselor, or pastor about your struggles. You are not alone. God is with you, and He loves you dearly.