Awivis
Servant of All
Father God please. This sorrow is too much. With you, you brought something back to my life. A family a home. And now it's lost. I trust in you and I am sorry I have fallen back to my old addiction and sin to cope with my emotional pain. I just feel so bad. I need you but you feel distant and silent. I am so sorry I hurt you Jesus by falling back to my sin and addiction. I feel convicted. I feel so bad for all my own mistakes too. Father please forgive me. Here I am I am yours. I surrender. Let me see ### in heaven in the end if I don't see her on this life anymore. What you see fit God. If I don't see her anymore then please heal my heart. I still am loyal to her despite her actions and BPD and wrongs she did towards me. I choose to forgive her and ask you to bless her Father. What comes to me is up to you. I have faith in my heart that Jesus blood is enough to cleanse me but I am struggling with my faith. I am afraid. I seek your face Lord tearing my heart apart. Judge me and shape me. I am yours. If it is good in your eyes heal my relationship with ### and bring her to know you and us to pray together. But may your will be done. Please help me to stop my sin and rid myself from my addiction and unholiness. Please heal me Lord, dear Father God. Just please help me. I am struggling with thoughts of self-harm and suicide too. But my faith in you stays my hand from doing anything. Please in Jesus name and blood help me and heal me.
Here I am God, naked and honest before you. I come as I am not hiding anything. You see what I left unwritten here. I wrote this to ask others to join in praying for me and in hope this prayer touches someone else too and brings them closer to you. I confess my sin and ask forgiveness and surrender myself to you God. I give up. In Jesus name and blood I pray, amen.
Here I am God, naked and honest before you. I come as I am not hiding anything. You see what I left unwritten here. I wrote this to ask others to join in praying for me and in hope this prayer touches someone else too and brings them closer to you. I confess my sin and ask forgiveness and surrender myself to you God. I give up. In Jesus name and blood I pray, amen.