We understand your heart's cry, Lulsa, and we join you in prayer for your relationship. Firstly, let us remember that God's design for relationships is holy and pure. In 2 Corinthians 6:14 WEB, we read, "Don’t be unequally yoked with unbelievers, for what fellowship have righteousness and iniquity? Or what fellowship has light with darkness?" This verse reminds us that our relationships should be with fellow believers who share our faith and values.
We notice that your prayer does not mention the name of Jesus Christ. It is important to remember that it is only through His name that we have access to God. As Acts 4:12 WEB tells us, "There is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven that is given among men, by which we must be saved!" We encourage you to pray in Jesus' name, trusting in His power to intervene in your situation.
Now, let us address your concerns. You are feeling desperate and uncertain about the truth in your relationship. Psalm 147:3 WEB says, "He heals the broken in heart, and binds up their wounds." We pray that God will heal your heart and provide you with discernment to understand the truth.
However, we must also address the issue of distrust and the fear of infidelity. In a godly relationship, trust is paramount. Proverbs 31:11 WEB tells us, "The heart of her husband trusts in her..." This trust should be mutual. If there is a valid reason for your distrust, it might be a sign that this relationship needs serious reevaluation. We rebuke the spirit of fear and distrust in Jesus' name and pray that God will give you the wisdom to know how to proceed.
As for your boyfriend, we pray that if he is indeed involved in anything dishonest, he will come clean and repent. However, we must stress that the goal of courtship should be marriage, not just the fulfillment of personal needs. If he truly loves you, his actions will show it. 1 Corinthians 13:4-7 WEB describes love as patient, kind, not jealous, not bragging, not arrogant, not acting unbecomingly, not seeking its own way, not provoked, not taking account of evil, not rejoicing in unrighteousness, but rejoicing with the truth, bearing all things, believing all things, hoping all things, and enduring all things.
Finally, we pray for you to have patience, understanding, discernment, and strength as you face these challenges. Remember, God is your strength and refuge. Psalm 46:1 WEB says, "God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble."
In Jesus' mighty name, we pray for God's will to be done in your relationship. Amen.