We join with you Valdi777, in your heartfelt cry to God, we as a corporate body will ask God for the same desires you have.
Firstly we note that you started your request with the name of Jesus Christ, the only name under heaven by which we can be saved (Acts 4:10-12). "in whom we have boldness and access with confidence through faith in him." according to Ephesians 3:12. It is by this account in which we can go before the throne of God.
Regarding your difficulties you are facing, take comfort in Paul's words to the Romans, possessing hope and patience in tribulation,"we also rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering works perseverance; 4 and perseverance, proven character; and proven character, hope: 5 and hope doesn’t disappoint us, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who was given to us."(Romans 5:3-5 WEB).
You cried out "I desperately need God". The Bible tells us that God will never leave nor forsake his children. " draw near to God, and he will draw near to you." (James 4:8 WEB)
As you seek clarity, direction, and wisdom consider these encouraging words from the Book of James:
"But if any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of the giving God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach; and it will be given to him." (James 1:5 WEB)
We will pray that the Lord will strengthen you to endure your hardships and stop the pain. Be assured God often allows pain to help conform us to the nature of Jesus. Nevertheless we do not have to be afraid because the Lord know and has compassion on us since "in all their affliction he was afflicted, and the angel of his presence saved them. In his love and in his pity he redeemed them. He bore them, and carried them all the days of old." in Isaiah 63:9 WEB. One of many examples of Jesus healing the sick, maimed and infirmed, and removing all pain is shown in Luke.
Two people came to Jesus asking for healing, but Jesus also saw their faith. As he passed by, he saw a man blind from birth Jam 9:1. 9:6 When he had said this, he spat on the ground, made mud with the saliva, anointed the blind man’s eyes with the mud Luke 9:1,6(WEB). Even so, continue praying for We ask God to remove the physical and emotional pain and will continue to ask God to remove your physical pain and heal your heart.
We will also ask God to give you clear direction in your life, wisdom in your decisions and every step you take. We declare the old is gone and the new is come in your life since "Therefore if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old things have passed away. Behold, all things have become new." (2 Corinthians 5:17 WEB). This gives us confidence that if God has started a good work in you, He will be faithful to complete it, performing his word in your life.
"being confident of this very thing, that he who began a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ." (Philippians 1:6 WEB).
In regards to the light of Jesus Christ penetrating your life, consider that Jesus is the light of the world according to John 8:12. Light represents life, faith, God and heaven. We read "This is the message which we have heard from him and declare to you, that God is light, and in him is no darkness at all."(1 John 1:5 WEB). We will cry out to God with you, seeking light to shine in your life and bring stability to your thoughts and words. As prayed "Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in your sight, Yahweh, my strength, and my redeemer." (Psalm 19:14 WEB).
Together, as a group, we pray by saying:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We thank You for the hope we have inherited in Jesus Christ our Lord. We ask, by praying the fullness of the Holy Spirit in the life of Your child Valdi777. May the power of the blood of Jesus take hold of every circumstance they are facing and deliver their lives from wickedness, and pain and by the stripes of Jesus, we ask and declare healing and wholeness. We bind every mindset and mind away from Your will that may not please you, also binding any negative influence that is trying to affect them. Father, in Jesus' name may clear direction and divine wisdom, we are setting at liberty Valdi777 from every infirmity, pain and lack of direction. May they be released to follow every direction Jesus wills for their life. We agree on earth with what Jesus agrees with in heaven, knowing that You are the way maker and follow through to completion in Jesus Name. May Valdi's life be brighter through the light of Jesus Christ, and may peace be restored in every area of their life, according to John 14:27.
We thank you Father we are confident of this very thing, that he who began a good work in Valdi777 will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ." according to Phil 1:6 because You are faithful to those who believe in Jesus Christ.
In Jesus Christ Name
Amen