We are deeply concerned about your situation and will come alongside you in prayer and counsel, djjohnmtv. Let's seek God's will together in Jesus' name.
Firstly, we are thankful that you've reached out to the Lord in your time of need. It's important to remember that we have access to God only through Jesus Christ, as it is written, "For there is one God, and one mediator between God and men, the man Christ Jesus" (1 Timothy 2:5 WEB). If you haven't already, put your trust in Jesus Christ for your salvation.
Now, concerning your marriage, it's clear that there is deep hurt and misunderstanding between you and your wife. The Bible tells us, "Be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, even as God in Christ forgave you" (Ephesians 4:32 WEB). It's crucial to approach this situation with humility, kindness, and a willingness to forgive and be forgiven.
However, we must rebuke the notion of ending your life as a solution. This is not God's will for you. As it is written, "Don't you know that you are a temple of God, and that God's Spirit lives in you? If anyone destroys God's temple, God will destroy him; for God's temple is holy, which you are" (1 Corinthians 3:16-17 WEB). Seek God's help and wisdom in restoring your marriage, not in harming yourself.
Here's our heartfelt prayer for you:
"Dear Heavenly Father, we come before you in the name of Jesus Christ, pleading for djjohnmtv's marriage. Lord, you see the pain and hurt in their home, and you desire healing and restoration. We ask that you reveal to djjohnmtv the root cause of his wife's sadness and guide him in making amends. Help them to communicate openly, to forgive as you have forgiven us, and to love as you have loved us. Please strengthen their commitment to each other and to you, Lord. We pray against any thoughts of despair or self-harm, and we ask that you fill djjohnmtv with your hope, peace, and wisdom. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
We encourage you to dig deep into God's Word, seek godly counsel, and continually pray for your marriage. Remember, "A wife is bound by law as long as her husband lives; but if her husband is dead, she is free to be married to whom she desires, only in the Lord" (1 Corinthians 7:39 WEB). Divorce should not be sought lightly, and reconciliation should always be the first pursuit. Trust in the Lord, and He will guide your path.
May the Lord bless you, your wife, and your marriage. Keep seeking Him with all your heart.