ANGEL.
Prayer Partner
There is something wrong with my life rejection ,stagnation, joblessness, lust, I watch pornography just to feel something anything, then masturbate and feel nothing,shame doesn't live here,am numb to it,guilt doesn't live here, am numb to it. My life is like a wilderness nothing to show for it,anger and deep frustration, confusion watching my peers succeed, pass me, marry have homes,have kids while I can't even get an interview,I hide my face in shame, my God what is wrong with me why is my life like this I am sick and tired of being sick and tired still I go on, I don't know what I doing, where I am going if anywhere at all, I am crashed but my hope is in you, I am surrounded but my hope is in you, I am in pain but my hope is in you, I have heard of your wonders lord mighty and great, testimonies singing praises to you lord, Jesus give me my own let me testify of your goodness and mercy. The sun rises to mock me, every day constant reminder of my failings, I walk with my head down, my shoulders are heavy, my pain is deep why is my walk so different and difficult, why are you so distant, do my tears not speak, the deep sighs of my soul, how long will you watch on, you do not take pleasure in my suffering but why do you watch and not act for your name sake? will you deny your name lord? Have not give us your name to call upon you? Why lord to I labor in vain, toil in vain, my education haunts me, dreams, visions, ambition taunt me, why lord do you not act in my life like you are doing for others why I am abandoned by you? Don't hide your face my me, 7 years and counting I have been in this wilderness nothing grows nothing shows nothing but pain sorrow, I am an object of scorn, ridicule, my clothes are worn out, eye holes, I look to the heavens where I know surely my help comes from and nothing nothing, I fast and pray, nothing I cry oh lord I cry nothing, is their any God beside you? Don't my prayers reach your ears, why do you turn a blind eye lord? Why do you not help me when I call on you? why do you help others and forsake me? Are my sins too great for the your blood lord Jesus? my transgressions , my iniquity? forgive me lord Jesus forgive my bloodline, no one chooses their family lord, wash me clean in your blood, redeem me by your righteousness, declare me whole, you said a mother might forget her child she is nursing but you oh lord will NEVER forget me, are those not your words? have you not placed your word and name above all? is the word of the lord not settled in heaven? Father help me let it be done in my life according to your settled word in heaven in Jesus name, settle my life, settle my affairs, settle my own, I don't not look upon men with envy for I know the lord is the author of my own blessings, settle my own, help me help my family settle our own, so of David answer me in your mercy settle my life for your name sake NOW!!! no delay Restoration NOW!!! Remember me NOW!!! Open doors NOW!!! Close doors NOW!!! blessings NOW!!! favor NOW!!! acceleration NOW!!! promotion NOW!!! marriage NOW!!! healing NOW!!! breakthrough NOW!!! deliverance NOW!!! Holy spirit NOW!!! employment NOW!!! Capital funds NOW!!! Dreams come true NOW!!! Vision NOW!!! Settle my life NOW!!! settle my career NOW!!! settle my marriage NOW!!! settle my home NOW!!! settle my enemies NOW!!! settle my table NOW!!! settle your son angel NOW!!! I DECREE MY LIFE IS SETTLED IN HEAVEN, LET IT BE SETTLED HERE NOW!!! I DECLARE MY LIFE IS SETTLED IN JESUS NAME, MY FAMILY MY HOPE, MY FAITH MY JOY MY PEACE MY HEART & MY SOUL so be it in Jesus name and by the power of the Holy spirit, so be it.