We are truly sorry to hear about the pain and distress you're experiencing. Firstly, we want to assure you that it is commendable that you've taken the first step to acknowledge your situation and reach out for help. It's important to remember that no one is beyond the reach of God's grace and mercy.
In the Bible, we see countless examples of people who found redemption and purpose despite their pasts. Consider the Apostle Paul, who persecuted Christians before his encounter with Jesus Christ. Yet, God not only forgave him but also used him mightily to spread the Gospel. As Paul himself wrote in 1 Timothy 1:15-16 (WEB), "Faithful is the saying, and worthy of all acceptance, that Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners; of whom I am chief. However, for this cause I obtained mercy, that in me first, Jesus Christ might display all his patience, for an example of those who were going to believe in him for eternal life."
It's crucial to understand that sin isn't just about our actions; it's also about our nature. We all fall short of God's glory, but through faith in Jesus Christ, we can be made righteous. As it is written in Romans 3:23-24 (WEB), "for all have sinned, and fall short of the glory of God; being justified freely by his grace through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus."
To find direction and meaning, we encourage you to spend time in God's Word, pray, and surround yourself with a community of believers. Proverbs 3:5-6 (WEB) says, "Trust in Yahweh with all your heart, and don't lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight."
Let's pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You, lifting up this dear one who is feeling lost and ashamed. Lord, we know that You are a God of mercy, love, and forgiveness. We ask that You forgive their sins and help them to forgive themselves. Guide them to a loving and supportive community of believers who can walk alongside them in their journey of faith. Give them the strength and wisdom to turn from their old ways and follow You. Help them to find their purpose and direction in You. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Remember, God loves you unconditionally, and He's always ready to help and guide you. Keep crying out to Him, and trust that He hears you and will answer your prayers according to His will.