Tajliose
Disciple of Prayer
Hello, please pray for me? I have work that I should have completed a couple of months ago but I haven’t yet. I have very low energy most of the time and have no drive to get it done. I really need to get it finished so that I can use that money to pay off debt but my spirit is so low that I can’t motivate myself to do it. I was homeless just over a year ago and ever since then I’ve been really struggling financially but no matter how hard I try I only make little progress. I’m at the point where I’m just tired of life and having to be an adult. I’ve been in debt for 8 years and have spent very little money on things that I don’t need (I literally buy a pair of jeans every two years usually because the one I have gets torn and I get a pair of sneakers every few years because that’s how long they last), all my money goes to living expenses and debt. Most of my debt was caused by a mechanic who ripped me off a few years ago and now I’m still paying for loans I took to fix the car even though I don’t have it anymore. I don’t know what to do anymore. My job also doesn’t allow me to do freelance work or have a business but if I get freelance work sometimes I just take it so I can make a little extra money and I feel guilty. I don’t even have food which sucks but I’ve been in this position a few times so I’m not really worried about being hungry or anything because I can bear that pain for a couple of weeks. I have some rice and oranges and some onions so I can use that for a few days until it runs out and I should be fine until the end of the month if I water fast. I had to get new glasses this month too, the last time I changed them was 5 years ago and my vision is much worse so that used all my money. I don’t know what to do anymore, I can’t go on living like this. It’s not worth the effort anymore, I used to always be very hopeful that things can and will improve if I work hard and keep learning new skills and they have a little bit but not enough. I’m grateful for what I have but it’s not enough and I’m just so tired of trying... Sorry, this was probably supposed to be a short prayer request, I don’t know why I wrote all of that...