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Jacqueline
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Hello, pastor. I'm an 53yrs. old and I've been trying to turn my ways and life over to God. I know that this this the right thing to do, but my past of darkiness keep being thrown in my face. see I gave up on life for many years, because of not seeing clearly of things that was happening in my life, from my childhood, my teen years, I felt unexcepted people in my life, in my childhood their was abandment by my mother and father, then from the time I was 12yrs. I had been raped twice. I tried to keep these things to myself, so I start isolateing,and closing down. by the time In was 20yrs. I couldn't trust anyone, I was so angry an mad, take I went to using drugs to get take away the pain,but after awhile it didn't work anymore, then I ended up selling my body, where more abuse came and I stayed out there for over 27yrs. now take I've seek help from Christian people that help me to know who I'm love by the most, and that is our God! Things seems harder then ever before. And I know that God has more for me then what being thrown at me, like angry Children, my mother not believing that I'm going to make it this way, Can't seems to find a job, or an income, having to live anywhere I Can, this is been going on for two years now, and I listen to you every sunday, you have really touch me , to keep believing that I too can succeed in life. Cause sometime I think that God has left me and I know I can't have him leave me, he's all I got. there no one else that can help me, Please tell me what to do, to have a change within myself, because I BELIEVE THAT THERE SOMETHING I'M DOING, THAT I CAN'T SEE! If you would pray for me, i'LL BE MORE THAN GRACEFUL! ----
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