#24K
Disciple of Prayer
Hello, My mother in law has guardianship over my children. With unspoken selfish, selfless, and unforgiven events leading up to the resentments built in her heart over the past year I have been taking full responsibility for the part I played in the separation of my children and I. By staying sober and working on fixing my life and all of a sudden being thrown out of their life again out of malicious intent I have to see that her motives are only to destroy me but I can see clearly now that God orchestrated it to be this way because it is in my best interest and this woman was going to be the driving force of a relapse resulting in the reunification process of my children and I to be drawn out further. I just want to speak with my six year old daughter and 3 year old son daily. I just want what's best for my children and now involuntarily having to live separate from my babies I am exerting strength, survival, and coping skills through prayer and mental endurance given to me through the grace so generously provided by Jesus Christ that I am able to bear the pain, but more so be patient in this affliction, faithful in hope, and fervent in prayer life. I need Jesus more now than ever. He is conditioning my heart to rely on him more in this time because he is known to hike up the stakes when my relationship with him is jeopardized due to distractions. I trust the process like I always say. Her birthday is tomorrow. I am denied the right, that is by law up to her discretion, to even tell them good night. I know she is wrong and I just pray that in god's perfect timing, which i will be honest I am truly hoping sooner than later, he will intervene and her heart be open to forgive and stop trying to be in control. It is unhealthy for the family. Please help Jesus, I'm not sure what else to ask for because I just know you know my heart and her heart and my children's needs. Please help me to meet them. Please help me help myself and become self sufficient again. I miss them so much. I love them. Thank you for giving me a daily reassurance of your love for me. I love you J.C. You can count on me to take initiative. Help me find my way.