Tim12345
Disciple of Prayer
Hello It has been some months since I last posted. I find it hard to come up with words. I really did not think I would still be alive at this point. Everything in my life is being stolen from me - health, wealth, peace, everything. Since all this has started over the past several months, I've prayed, fasted, and studied Scripture asking God to show me the steps out of all the mess and what t do for healing. The pain in my body is at levels that I did not think any human could endure. The worst part is, after walking with the Lord for 40+ years, either He is not talking to me, or I cannot hear Him. It is as if He is too busy. I have cried out for Him to show me where I went wrong, what have I done to offend Him, and what can I do to make everything right. But I get no answer. That silence has never happened before for so many months. Sure there have been times over my life where I was going through a dry season, a trying time. But never anything this severe for this long. I called for the elders at church & they gathered with the pastor & prayed for me. According to Scripture, that should help make a breakthrough. But things have steadily gotten worse. The only opinion they all had in that prayer circle was that this is just an attack of the devil and it will pass. But bills are stacked to the rafters & health keeps going down, My company, after 17 years in business, is being stolen from me. And yes, I have tried to find a job, but I'm in my 50s. And even though I have some great experience, nobody seems to want to hire someone at such an age, I've sent out a thousand resumes & only had one interview which didn't go anywhere when they saw my age. At this point, every night, I ask God to please let me come home. I'm so tired and in so much pain. I just want to go home. Can anyone please stand with me in prayer that this will all end. Please. I have asked God to please show me steps to take. Help me find someone who will stand with me. But even after months, nothing. I'm just sooo tired of constant battles.