AmandaPanda
Disciple of Prayer
Hello, I just got a message to post again ( didnt know it was ok to re-post) but this time, I will add a little more context with my situation. I have been going through a really hard time the last few years. As soon as 2022 hit, everything went completely sideways. (I will add that it was shortly after I moved into this apt) everything started happening) Not that things were ever easy before, but I have always been able to stay on my feet, have a job or 2, run my business, have friendships, etc. I will add that I had a not so pleasant childhood with an abusive alcoholic, narcissistic father and a mother with some mental health issues and still managed always to work and be stable (with God's help of course) But when 22' hit, everything went really wrong. My mom, who is a senior (and lives with me), and I both caught covid and both got really, really sick, a few months later my hair started falling out due to stress and probably the covid, my business/sales just stopped happening, I started having vertigo and then a seizure in Aug 22 and ended up getting sent to the hospital in an ambulance, probably from all the stress and these other things that seem to just keep coming on one after the next. I know life happens, and there will always be problems but it's like almost every other day it's something or another and this is going on year 3 of this. I am just asking for prayers again. I need to fix my financial situation soon, by some miracle my business picks up again or If God just wants me to find a job I feel so lost and stuck. I need to move and find a place that is affordable as the rent just went up by an extra $500. ( I have been living on my savings the last couple of years which is now starting to drain) And so many more things that If I write here it will be a book by the time I'm done. I feel like it's almost a (mild) Job from the bible situation; not sure how else to explain it. I am alone, can't rely on family or friends. I'm so stressed, and I really feel abandoned by God, never felt like that before through all the past trials and things I have dealt with and never felt this low. As I said have always managed to be ok and get back on my feet, but this round is really strange and I'm not sure how to come out of this. Thanks, everyone, again for your prayers; I appreciate it from all of you. Amanda