Amen, Sweaxulira! Trust God's comfort. "Cast your cares on the Lord and he will sustain you." (Ps 55:22) He's with you. "Be strong and courageous." (Josh 1:9) Keep praying, He's working. "Pray without ceasing." (1 Thess 5:17) In Jesus' name! 
**
**@TiffyTaffy** is stressed; let's lift them up!
**
**
**
Abhigna
Disciple of Prayer
Hello, i come here to confess my sins and seek prayer on behalf of me all those who read this. When i was 4 yrs old and my brother 8 months old my mother died by comitting suicide due to some family issues.My dad had second marriage, and she was very good. Though did not replace our mother, she is good at heart. Myself and my brother both bought up by my grandparents. My dad who had second marriage has another 3 children. We were never dependent on him, though we know him that he is the only one supporting our education and our needs though we stay with his parents. We rarely visit our parents. So, from childhood my only intention was to see my brother happy and i tried a lot to not to make him feel my mother loss. Years passed by and i completed post graduation and my brother his graduations by the grace of God. We were born christians by birth, and i was little more prayerful than my brother. Though i did not ask God anything, he was always with me. But, the only thing is i do not have any guidance from my childhood how to be and how not to be. God was always taking care of me and i could feel this many times in my life.My brother was little stubborn from childhood and during his last year of graduation he wanted cell phone. i then only completed my postgraduation and was in search of Job. He was asking that so stubbornly that i could not say no.I did not know what to do.Whenever he doesn't get something he used to feel that only if he had mother, he would share his needs with her. i do not like him to feel like that. First time i took hand loan from my cousin and bought him that. That cell phone costed 14,000INR. Later,i got job. but, my salary was so less that i could not repay back that. To repay that i have taken another loan. so, this continued. I could feel where i was going on like this, but had no option or anyone to help me out.I know this is only because of my own doings, but i was helpless. Meanwhile i got married. i thought of sharing about the debts with my husband. but, initially he used to stay somewhere else and myself in another place and we had some difference of opinions on understanding each other. so, i did not say him anything. Later on we both started working at one place, but my debts increased so much that i feared to share with my husband, because i know the way he thinks and i know i will lose my family if i share. I never cheated anyone in repayment of interests. I struggled a lot and am still struggling past 9 years. Now with 2 kids before my eyes i could not continue to live like this.want to be loyal to my family.my brother is married and is just now settling. i do not want to make him responsible for the debts. from past 2 years i am praying to God like anything to give me single chance to start my life again. I repent so much for what i have done. now i feel that if my mother would have been alive, probably my life would not have been like this. i miss her so much now. wanted to come out of this badly.but, no one to pray on my behalf to God, to show a way to come out of this. please i pray all who read, please and please pray for me. as a human everyone does mistakes, but with much repentence i come to all of you to carry on my burden to God to deliver me from this debts. Tried a lot for online loans, but some cheated me by taking some money upfront and some posted my name as fraudster. i am not so. With much genuiness and frankness i come before you all to pray for me in this christmas season.Tomorrow i have to pay 2 lakhs and i do not have any source except leaning on God's shoulder to show me a way.I do not want to make the mistake my mother had made and leave my children as orphans. want to start a second life with all Glory to God. Daily meditating on God's word of forgiveness and his help in need. i know i have done mistake and my situation is because of the things i have done. but, i also hope there is value for repentance. when ever we do some wrong, we look for once chance. with that hope to get single chance from God am before his feet. I was always so unfortunate from my childhood and i now come to God to touch me and make me his own making me feel his presence. please pray for me my brothers and sisters that i may come out of this situation giving all the Glory to God being a loyal vessel to him. Please pray to God to give one chance and wipe my past hidden life.-Amen
Last edited by a moderator:
