Hello I am requesting a prayer. I have five children, single mom, and the reason I’m single is because I’ve been in a domestic violence relationship my whole life; it’s all I know. My mother never loved me, has nothing to do with me, and has her favorite child, which is my sister, as the only child she claims as her daughter. I don’t even see my mom because she has this hate for me because I was close with my father and they had a divorce, but I’m healing through that. She financially abuses me by pretending she’s transferring money from my account to her, knowing that I would never hurt my mom. She knows my social, she knows everything about me because she’s my mom, and she still uses my identity to profit off of. One time, even get me arrested over something I didn’t do, and I suspect she did. We look similar. I pray that truth gets revealed and I can get my money back from the bank, of course, because that’s all I had. I don’t work; I was saving to get out of another abusive situation with my kids' father who verbally, mentally, physically abuses me, even stabbed me. I am so shaken from all this abuse that I develop PTSD. I don’t know who to trust, I can’t sleep, and my kids are now adults; they see me as well not physically but financially; they still for me and they ganged up on me unless I give them what they want; they rule the house but I paid all the rent; they talk down to me, insult me; they’ve even reported me not getting their way to child services when my Son was a minor and they were adults. This ruined my chance to be employed. I work as a caregiver, hospice, and when they run your background, they see each child services was involved even if it was a false claim, and I’m having a hard time getting work. I’m having a hard time getting work anyways because I have such bad anxiety to where I have to cry and I can’t breathe. I need help to heal, and I pray that most biggest prayer is Sec 8 and county assistance, but my youngest son is 17, gonna be 18 soon, and I have been on the system since I was 15 years old, and I’m 46 now; it’s all I know as well, and I would’ve and had many jobs but I can’t keep them because I keep getting harassed and threatened and bullied at my job by the same people who are determined to hold me back. It genuinely makes him happy to hurt me and for me to feel low because they have their father’s mentality; it’s kind of like a high five whenever they hurt me or steal for me, and I’m not exaggerating this either. I will not qualify for Sec 8 with my kids being a minor, so I came up with an idea to add on some senior citizens in my home so I could give 24-hour care, which they asked me to do; this would be great, but unfortunately, it all depends on a doctor writing a letter saying that he needs to live here for his disability needs. The doctor is very hesitant because doctors try to avoid being liable, so he is refusing to write this letter. I am trying one more time, and I guess what my prayers are: I have a home and I qualify for in-home support services taking care of this elderly person. I need the doctor to write whatever it is he needs to write so I could stay in my home, I could heal. I pray that the father of my kids stop drinking and is a better father who doesn’t cheat on me every chance he gets with people at work and stop abusing me or have God remove him if he can’t change. I pray he sees himself and what he truly is and what he truly does to hurt me and has genuinely remorse. I keep them around only because I can’t afford the bills, insurance on cars my son needs, so I take the bus so I’m able to do that. With my mom, me, and my kids robbing my account, it makes it harder to leave because sometimes I see my account that it reaches zero and I have to go to someone and I don’t have family to help so I have to endure or whatever this man puts me through to be able to cover the rent or whatever expenses. I’m praying for a way to be independent and heal through a job, through a win somehow in a legal case, or maybe even school, which I would love to do. I would love to work for public health to make sure senior citizens are protected by popping up at the locations and siding them; that’s my dream job, that’s my heart. I got so many obstacles; I feel like better off dead because I could never get ahead in this world. My name is ###. I know this is a lot, but thank you for letting me write it out. Bless everybody who helps me and listens and reads because at least you guys care when I feel invisible in this world where no one cares.
