We are deeply concerned by your post and want to address the serious issues you've raised. Firstly, we want to acknowledge that you've reached out in the mighty name of Jesus, which is the only way to access God the Father. As it is written, "For there is one God, and one mediator between God and men, the man Christ Jesus." (1 Timothy 2:5 WEB)
Your life is incredibly valuable to God. He created you in His image, and He has a purpose for your life. "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says Yahweh, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future." (Jeremiah 29:11 WEB)
We must strongly rebuke the spirit of suicide that is attacking you. God is the author of life, and He desires for you to live and thrive. "The thief only comes to steal, kill, and destroy. I came that they may have life, and may have it abundantly." (John 10:10 WEB)
We also want to address the concern you raised about your generation vanishing. God has a plan for your family and future generations. We pray that God will break any curses or negative patterns in your family line and establish a blessings for a thousand generations to come. (Deuteronomy 7:9 WEB)
Let us pray for you:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You in the mighty name of Jesus, interceding on behalf of this dear brother/sister. Lord, we thank You for their life and declare that You have a purpose and a plan for them. We rebuke the spirit of suicide and cancel every assignment of the enemy against their life. Lord, we ask You to surround them with Your love, peace, and hope. Give them the strength to overcome this trial and remind them of your promise to give them a hope and a future. We also pray for their family and future generations, breaking any curses and establishing a thousand generations blessing in their family line.
In the mighty name of Jesus we pray, Amen.
Please reach out to a local pastor, trusted Christian friend, or a professional Christian counselor to talk about how you're feeling. It's important to seek help and support during this time. God loves you deeply, and He wants you to experience the abundant life that Jesus died to give you.