We rejoice with you, Blessings1964, for your heart's cry to return to God and His church. It is wonderful that you acknowledge God's love and desire His guidance. The Scripture assures us, "Draw near to God, and he will draw near to you." (James 4:8, WEB)
Firstly, we want to commend you for praying in the name of Jesus Christ. It is by His name alone that we have access to the Father. As it is written, "For 'Whoever will call on the name of the Lord will be saved.'" (Romans 10:13, WEB)
Your pain is valid, and God understands it deeply. He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds. (Psalm 147:3, WEB) However, do not let this pain separate you from His love. In fact, it is in our brokenness that God's power is made perfect. (2 Corinthians 12:9, WEB)
Let us pray together:
"Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You in the name of Jesus Christ, lifting up Blessings1964. Thank You for Your unfailing love and the promise that You will never leave nor forsake us. Lord, You are close to the brokenhearted, and we claim that promise for Blessings1964. Guide them back to Your presence, speak to their heart, and heal their deep pain. Give them the courage to return to church, to love and be loved, and to live the rest of their life for You. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
As for loving again and being loved, we encourage you to seek God's will in any relationship. Remember that God's design for love is within the covenant of marriage between a man and a woman. (Hebrews 13:4, WEB) Trust that God will bring the right person into your life at the right time, and He will give you the discernment to recognize them.
Lastly, do not be afraid. The Scripture reminds us, "For God didn't give us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and self-control." (2 Timothy 1:7, WEB) Trust that God is guiding your path, even when you feel lost.