Anonymous
Beloved of All
Heavenly Father, after 36 years of trying to be a good wife I am so tired. I want to please you with all I do. Several people have advised me to leave him. It is true there has been emotional, mental, verbal abuse....you know all of it....even physical years ago......my Mother in law hurt me deeply like a cut to my heart with her hateful words....she never really wanted him to marry me.....she didn't think I was good enough.....he doesn't want a divorce or separation.....I do.......but I feel this obligation to stay and try to help him.....he says he will go to counseling.......he didn't have a good childhood and my heart goes out to him......Please, Lord, give me a revelation on what to do with my life......even my children have told me to leave......I have the strength to do it now.....but I feel this need to stay and try to see him through the counseling.....is that you, Lord??? I seek your guidance......if you want this marriage restored and healed I know you are the only one who can do it.........one person cannot make a marriage work......it takes 3 and you are the 3rd....it feels like only you and I have tried for 36 years.....he loses jobs, can't keep them, he is moody and he has problems with taking too many pills......he lies and he flirts with other women......yet, he says he loves me.....so why don't I feel loved? he keeps my nerves sick.......he has dumped everything on me......Lord, I want to please you.....when do you say it's okay to leave a marriage......??? It's so hard.....give me strength and wisdom.......I bring all of this to your throne by your son, Jesus Christ.....Amen.....