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[HBPastorToBe]

I'm trying my best to stay positive and continue to trust in God. It's really getting hard as of late. Sometimes I feel like giving up. But that voice always tells me to "Just trust me". I know I have been for years now. Ever since God came into my life. But it hasn't been straight up. But, up and down. Everytime I feel things are about to look up, things change. I ask myself,  what am I doing wrong. I'm not the type to blame others for what I go through. I blame myself, and examine myself. Deep down I know God has a purpose for all I go through. But this road has been quite hard for me. I really need assurance right now from God above. Not that I can demand anything from God. Just something to strengthen my faith. God has not failed me. I know this. He always keeps my head above water and comes through at the right time. But every journey, every turn; seems to start me back at square one. Packing my bags with just enough to get by. Years ago, September 20th 2012. I was at this same point. Bags packed waiting. Leaving my then wife and kids. Recently I had my kids back in my life. Felt like all was falling back in place. Then a change of plans and their back with their mother.  My ex-wife is mad at me. She thinks I didn't try hard enough. But truth is I did. I gave my all to support them. When I had them, I lived for them not me. I work in the moving industry. Which is an up and down business. I like doing it, but it's just not stable. Some weeks four days, some three, some two or one. I've been doing it full time for 3 years now. But it's leading me nowhere fast. I look for work elsewhere. But I get no calls, nothing. I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm so tired of having to lean on family for help. I really want to be able to support my kids. I often think that maybe if I had steady good income I could even make my family whole again. Reconciliation, kids, house, car the whole nine yards. Then I get outburst from my ex-wife telling me how I ruined her life and how she wish she never met me. How I don't want to work. Which I know in my heart is not true. The words she say that is. But they still hurt. I don't talk down on her, I don't degrade her. The thing is. I know she has done messed up things since we separated,  but I always try to encourage her. But when she is mad she blames me for all. She's been in numerous relationships since we split. But still when things go wrong. It's my fault. It's like the devil knows her words hurt me, so he uses her to get under my skin. I've even tried to be in one relationship since we split up. It didn't work out. I wanted it to, but it didn't. It's like I've been having to worst season in all aspects of my life. But there were good moments also. At times I did do well. But it never lasted. Please pray for me. That I get back on my feet and gain everything that was lost to me. Everything that's meant to be returned anyway. Because these twist and turns have me confused. But I know the basis. A strong relationship, (no matter who with, my exwife, my ex girlfriend or someone new) Financial stabilty, so I can provide for my children and myself, and all that comes with that. All I've ever wanted in life was a family and to be able to provide for them. Not the american dream, but my dream. 

 

[Shermarie1]

May our loving God hear and answer your prayer request. In Jesus precious name, Amen!!
Ephesians 3:20 (KJV) Now unto him that is able to do exceeding abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that worketh in us

 

[talking with Jesus]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[lenore2]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[Brother James]

I'm trying my best to stay positive and continue to trust in God. It's really getting hard as of late. Sometimes I feel like giving up. But that voice always tells me to "Just trust me". I know I have been for years now. Ever sense God came into my life. But it hasn't been straight up. But, up and down. Everytime I feel things are about to look up, things change. I ask myself,  what am I doing wrong. I'm not the type to blame others for what I go through. I blame myself, and examine myself. Deep down I know God has a purpose for all I go through. But this road has been quite hard for me. I really need assurance right now from God above. Not that I can demand anything from God. Just something to strengthen my faith. God has not failed me. I know this. He always keeps my head above water and comes through at the right time. But every journey, every turn. Seems to start me back at square one. Packing my bags with just enough to get by. Years ago, September 20th 2012. I was at this same point. Bags packed waiting. Leaving my then wife and kids. Recently I had my kids back in my life. Felt like all was falling back in place. Then a change of plans and their back with their mother.  My ex-wife is mad at me. She thinks I didn't try hard enough. But truth is I did. I gave my all to support them. When I had them, I lived for them not me. I work in the moving industry. Which is an up and down business. I like doing it, but it's just not stable. Some weeks four days, some three, some two or one. I've been doing it full time for 3 years now. But it's leading me nowhere fast. I look for work elsewhere. But I get no calls, nothing. I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm so tired of having to lean on family for help. I really want to be able to support my kids. I often think that maybe if I had steady good income I could even make my family whole again. Reconciliation, kids, house, care the whole nine yards. Then I get outburst from my ex-wife telling how I ruined her life and how she wish she never met me. How I don't want to work. Which I know in my heart is not true. The words she say that is. But they still hurt. I don't talk down on her, I don't degrade her. The thing is. I know she has done messed up things since we separated,  but I always try to encourage her. But when she is mad she blames me for all. She's been in numerous relationships since we split. But still when things go wrong. It's my fault. It's like the devil knows her words hurt me, so he uses her to get under my skin. I've even tried to be in one relationship since we split up. It didn't work out. I wanted it to, but it didn't. It's like I've been having to worst season in all aspects of my life. But there were good moments also. At times I did do well. But it never last. Please pray for me. That I get back on my feet and gain everything that was lost to me. Everything that's meant to be returned anyway. Because these twist and turns have me confused. But I know the basis. A strong relationship, (no matter who with, my exwife, my ex girlfriend or someone new) Financial stabilty, so I can provide for my children and myself. And all that comes with that. All I've ever wanted in life was a family and to be able to provide for them. Not the anerican dream, but my dream. 

I don't know if you realize this or not but God hates divorce. What if God divorced us? We as people keep going through the same things because we aren't learning our place in Jesus. We either have good promises or bad promises hunting for us, searching for us and overtaking us. It's time we got right with Jesus and did the things He asks us so we get the good promises. For your wife's sake and your children don't you think you should be with them? Our children become unclean when we divorce and re marry. Is our life depending on what our wives say about us or what Jesus says about us? 

From your name, looks like you would like to be a pastor. The Biblical definition of a pastor starts out as a man with one wife, not a divorced man with a new wife. 

I hope this helps you friend...

Powerful healing promise hidden in Proverbs 3:7-8, I am not wise in my own eyes, I fear You Lord, I depart from evil, especially my own evil thoughts and my flesh is healed and my body is refreshed in Jesus  
 
Praying for others especially in your situation will help you tremendously in yours friend  
 
Take no thought for your life dear friend and Jesus will take thought for you. Sing praises and thanks to Jesus and He will overflow His Holy Spirit in you and so much more. He will fight for you and give you the desires of your heart
 
Pray this prayer look up the verses and pray it again with your friends and family and let's mount up with wings as eagles and soar. Soar with me
 
Let Us Pray:  God I ask in Jesus' name, bless me to grow closer to You.  I long for a more intimate relationship with You.  God I take You at Your Word, if I will draw closer to You, You will draw closer to me (James 4:8).  Show me how to draw closer to You.   Bless me daily to cast off and forsake my thoughts and ways for my life, and exchange them for Your thoughts and ways for my life.  Let me think Your thoughts and dream Your dreams for my life.  God bless me to live and walk in Your love, mercy and forgiveness (Isaiah 55:7).  I confess, I will take no thought for my life.   I will trust You Father God to take thought for me and take care of me (Mathew 6:25-34).  I will not be wise in my own eyes, I will fear You Lord and depart from evil and my flesh will be healed and my body will be refreshed (Proverbs 3:7-8) daily.  Thank You Jesus for Your Promises!  Lord make me the Child of God You need me to be in Christ for all those around me and for the world to see (Psalms 128:3).  Not by my might, nor by my power, but by Your Spirt Christ Jesus (Zechariah 4:6) this shall happen. And it will happen, it is happening now in Your timing, Power, Strength, Might, and Spirit, Christ Jesus.  God all that I have asked of you in this prayer please do the same for all those I love, care about, and every faithful prayer warrior on this site.  Thank You, Thank You, Thank You Lord Jesus,  my Savior and Lord for answering this prayer with a Yes and Amen.
 
Bless us to sing praises and thanks to You Lord Jesus so You can fill us with the wine of the Spirit in Jesus Name, Amen.

 

[Anonymous]

Lord help us to keep fighting the enemy. Lord Jesus please fight for us and take care of all our needs speedily. Amen 

 

[HBPastorToBe]

I don't believe in divorce either. I've been praying for reconciliation for years  That is truly what I want. I believe marriage is sacred and I agree with you. It does make it bad for the kids, confusing them making them think divorce is ok, when it's not in Gods eyes. Thank you for your words of encouragement and keep me in your prayers.  My name is Houston Beard, my ex-wifes name Is Julie Beard. Kids, Houston Beard III and Julecia Beard!

 

[Joyce444]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

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