Othaireurron
Prayer Warrior
I pray for great health I pray for a new home I pray for a new job I pray for a new car I pray for strength and protection I pray for healing from my past sins I pray for brighter days I pray to heal and become a better woman I pray for my body to heal I pray for my teeth to grow back I pray to heal from mild scoliosis I pray to heal from flat feet I pray that depression and anxiety go away I pray to heal from schizophrenia and to get back to myself I was sad depressed for a few years now because I didn’t have my own home I felt like living with my mother was taking a toll on me I felt like I had nothing to do here and I would leave and just walk I felt tired and stressed out I was wanting God to heal me but nothing was working I was wearing my mother shoes and her clothes I felt dirty I didn’t feel right or feel like myself I wanted to have my own clothes on I haven’t had money to shop or buy my own clothes for years I was working for companies that I didn’t Like working for a warehouse I hated It I felt like my pay check was too little and I didn’t like that I would be packed in a van with Hispanic People I felt out of place and not like myself I’m not racist or anything but it was filled with immigrants with people who barely speak English and one of the woman tried to make me get out of the van last and She rushed to the edge of the row to get out before me and when she got out she had fell I was supposed to get out before her and she tried to make me get out last because I was African American that was some racist stuff I pray for healing and that I get back to myself I pray for protection from the man upstairs he’s attacking my body my muscles he was attacking my face my lips everything I don’t like this feeling I pray for my nerves to heal for my back arms feet Shoulders everything I pray to heal I haven’t been myself for years I would fight with my mother just about everyday it was really bad I would call the cops on her because I felt like she would just come and start fights with me she would attack me occasionally it was very bad I want a job so I can eat healthier foods and be able to provide for myself I want a new home so I can be happy I don’t like the man upstairs I feel as if he’s attacking my body and he’s doing it on spite he’s trying to wait for me to move so he can see which way to move he’s weird I pray for protection from this man I been to hospitals all around talking of my living situation I was running away from my home for a very long time because of this man he would see me and start walking slow it irritated my soul what he was doing I see him when he walking outside and it’s like he start walking faster I can feel tension in my nerves telling me to get away from this man when walking down the street he walks weird he walks crooked I noticed that and he catches the bus a lot I see him standing by the bus stop I don’t think he drives he just be home a lot making a lot of noise throughout the house I know because I’m home majority of the time and that’s all I hear throughout the day it’s aggravating I used to fear this man so much he would kick and stomp and do things to force me to be afraid of him he Would walk really fast dropping things and it’s like he’s trying to intentionally drop things right above my head he did something to the floors inside the house I don’t know but it’s not the same the floors make noise throughout the house they used to make noise but not that loud I feel like even when the lights Start blinking he’s upstairs doing making noise and causing things to mess up inside of my apartment even with the water inside of the sink I feel like he keeps himself standing by the sink and when I wash my hands I feel like he’s waiting for me to turn off the sink so he could bang on the walls and when I go to sit down on the toilet I can feel him upstairs inside of his apartment right where I’m at dropping things behind me he would flush the toilet soon as I get done using the bathroom I don’t like that I pray for strength and healing and that I get back to myself I was inside of a mental hospital for about a month and one of the staff members said to me that I needed to have the door open but I never closed it he was just saying things to me he didn’t even speak or say hi to me he just immediately opened up the door and said keep the door open I never closed it my roommate would close the door every time she would leave out I used to think that she would be doing it on purpose I felt frustrated and aggravated depressed when I was there I didn’t like it at all I felt like a lot of people there were different I liked one girl that was there because she gave me pizza when her friend had bought her an entire box of pizza I pray to get back to myself and stop going to the hospital I want to be healthy so I don’t have to keep going back it’s tiring and I feel as if is the greatest healer he gives perfect health and works through doctors if a cure was to able be made I pray for better days I pray for healing I pray to heal from being at the Hospital I would sleep in a lot I would be tired I didn’t want to get up and talk to those people they had their own problems I just wanted to go home I’m a very smart girl I did a lot of things in my life I felt as if I didn’t belong there and they had put me there because I wasn’t showering or taking care of myself I honestly dressed better when I was inside of the hospital I felt like the clothes that they gave me were nice and they fit me well but my energy and my spirit wasn’t happy there I was washing up there and taking care of myself I felt like I could do those things while I was there and as soon as it was time for me to leave I felt nervous that I wouldn’t keep it up because I hated the apartment I stayed in so much at that time I was going back and forth with my aunt and my mothers house both houses were stressing me out I had did that for a while I pray for strength that I don’t allow the enemy to make me afraid inside of my own home and that I learn to be more confident in myself and stand up for myself more and to stop traveling to hospitals and different towns and to focus on myself I was so stressed out it was bad I pray for healing and that I get back to myself Please pray that I do heal and that I stop being nervous and stressed out about the guy upstairs and guy next door if he makes noise I would make noise back because I feel as if he’s attacking me even when my mother would slam down the garbage lid when she had saw me coming I would be upset I pray that my muscles heal and begin to get stronger I pray for better days I pray to stop allowing People to control me and tear me down and to tell me bad of myself I pray for better I couldn’t believe I was in the hospital for a month I had chosen to go there because my mother wanted me to go because I wasn’t showering and when I was at the other hospital before I actually went to the hospital that I was going to stay at one of the people from the emt had gotten upset with me and she told them to give me medication because she couldn’t handle my energy and she strapped me up on the bed and she started to treat me in a way I didn’t like her and the Caucasian man both was treating me I was a bad woman or a sick woman and they didn’t want to handle me when she had gotten inside she had told the doctor or the nurse or the Woman at the front desk that she had to give me medication and they had drugged me up I hated that that happened towards me then I had a roommate who would close the door behind her every time she would leave out she would even close the bathroom door but she would do it intentionally to make me mad and she would also sing really loud inside of the bedroom then she sing on my side Of the room I felt like the nurses liked her more than they liked me for some strange reason I just slept a lot I read the Bible and I showered and ate I didn’t do much it wasn’t much to do I hated it I ended up changing my room and the nurse told me that I couldn’t eat inside of the room but I felt better doing that I didn’t want to eat with the other people I was sad and depressed I couldn’t go outside I was inside the building all day I felt as if life was passing me by and as if I committed a crime I hated myself I was different when I left out that’s when I had gained weight because they would feed us and I would eat everything they fed us not everything but I would eat all of my meals and I would sleep a lot I felt sick and unlike myself I had an issue with one of the guys that was there he was Chinese and he would walk inside of the bedroom when I was asleep for some reason I didn’t trust him he said that we were a family I couldn’t stand that place at all I pray to get back to myself and heal I want to buy my own clothes it seem as if here at my house I don’t have clothes that fit me right even when I was staying with my aunt I noticed that my clothes looked better when I stayed over her house and when I was at my grandmothers house here my clothes looked ok I pray for healing and better days maybe I’m just noticing things but I pray that I began to heal and that things start to look up for me I pray for better days I pray for strength and protection I pray for a new home I pray for a new car I pray to heal from depression and anxiety I pray to heal from low self esteem I pray to heal from suicidal thoughts I pray to heal from weight gain I pray to lose weight and for a flat stomach