Othaireurron
Prayer Warrior
I pray for great health I pray for healing I feel like my nerves are damaged or not the same I don’t feel normal I feel as if the man upstairs is attacking my body I was on medication but it wasn’t helping I was worried of my life I hated the home I was in I still do I pray to move to a different home where it’s safer and better the building I don’t like I never liked this building I pray to move from here I used to always leave my house and sit in the hallway alone on my laptop sometimes I wouldn’t have one and I would just sit on the staircase for hrs I would even fall asleep on them sometimes people would walk past me I didn’t like my home and wanted to move out I was always anxious and nervous I struggled with depression I would be anxious when I would work at stores I hated I didn’t like working at the supermarket it was men that worked there that would say negative things about me I pray to heal and get back to myself I was the one that applied for a job there now it’s not the same trying to work and look for a job I had issues with finding a job for months I quit my last job I didn’t like the lady that was helping me I felt like she was too close towards me when she would be typing on the computer when we would be training and when she would be sitting next to me I felt strange energy with her a lot of people that worked there weren’t so friendly I felt sick working there I felt like the break room was good I was talking to a guy that was there before and he was nice towards me some girl had told me not to get up when she came around she was coming to fix something I felt as I didn’t know her but I felt like I was originally getting up and when I was looking for something I overheard her say something to the guy saying I need to look for something when I never asked her I just pray for a new home I hate the house that I’m staying in right now and I would like to move I been living here for a long time I don’t like the neighbors I have I feel as if their nosy and make noise intentionally I hate it I want my own apartment I want to be comfortable and not stressed out or worried of anybody I pray for my health and for my body to heal I haven’t been myself for a very long time I was not myself I asked a bus driver to take me to the hospital I had gotten on the wrong bus and the hospital was close she stopped by a college and called them and they sent me to the hospital I told them that my hands were bothering me and that I didn’t feel like myself I pray that I heal from staying inside of this house I feel as if my head is not normal neither is my thoughts my head feels heavy it’s like I’m not in touch with reality or my thoughts I’m always worried or stressed out my mother moves weird around me I never liked being around her well for majority of time I wanted my own place I didn’t like sleeping with her all the time I pray that I get back to myself for years I’ve been sick stressed out nervous anxious not myself I pray that I get back to myself I was in a relationship for years and I didn’t like him really I just dated him because he was popular and knew a lot of people and I felt as if I had made the wrong decision he would talk and date women behind my back even my friend told me that he had did something he was dating a woman younger than him that was in a grade lower than me and she said she had kissed him he was holding hands with another woman that was in a picture with him and that woman was my cousin I felt like she knew that me and him was dating and she still kept dating him or talking to him he would talk to women from my school a bunch of them and I didn’t know how he even knew who they were he would talk about him being single online I stopped messing around with him I felt as if he was liking my mother at one point I felt like she was flirting with him and that bothered me she started to act different around him I felt as if crazy things were happening and she was fighting with me she would always talk about me when she was around him that would be the first thing that she would say and she would always mention how I used to stare at her whenever we would be on the phone he was cheating on me even when he was locked up in jail i wasn’t the first person that he called he had been dating another younger girl who posted online that she had talked towards him he denied that he even knew her when I asked him about it I pray to forgive him so that I can move on completely I’m still triggered by what he did towards me but he has changed tremendously he drives now and he’s a Muslim I don’t totally agree with his beliefs but I feel as if it settles him and makes him believe and do the right thing then that’s ok with me he told me that I should take my shahaddah he’s a good guy now but I don’t want him back I want to heal and move on I feel as though he wanted my mother and that bothered me I can’t be with nobody who finds my mother attractive in that type of way and for her to entertain him and still talk to him after I had broken up with him triggered me I pray for my health to be better I pray to heal from fake friendships I used to be drunk a lot and I would be passed out I was drinking running away from my pain and my problems I hated my skin I hated my body I wanted to work and make more money I hated myself I pray that I can learn to love myself and do better I pray for a new home I pray for a new car I pray for a family and a good man I pray for better days I pray for my body to heal I pray for my nerves to heal I pray for clearer skin I pray for brighter days I pray for a healthier body I pray for peace love and happiness I pray to let go of fear of other people fear of what people may think of me people was saying bad things about me from the mental hospital one nurse told me that they had it noted that I was afraid of people in the unit and thought that everyone was following me I don’t know where they had gotten that information from because I never told them those type of things then I told the nurse that when I read a scripture my heart rate had went down she went back and told the doctor what I said and he told me that he was worried and concerned of me it’s like they didn’t believe that God can heal and fix things they was really looking at me as if something was wrong with me I thought that they was going to keep me in the hospital longer my mother told them that I would travel to different hospitals and I overheard the lady say that I wasn’t to be trusted and she was laughing looking at all the hospitals that I had went to I honestly felt like something was wrong with me I just wanted to get away from my mother she told me not to go to the hospital but I wanted to get out of the house I hated the bus that I was living in I hated my grandmothers house my aunts house I didn’t like it I even had issues with my uncle I pray that I can move into a house that I like a house that is good I pray to heal from fear depression anxiety I pray to be fulfilled and have my life back I feel like a walking muscle spasms my hands feel like my nerves are taking control I felt like the neighbor upstairs did something to my nerves I still feel that way I went to turn on the light and felt like something had happened To my index finger even when I had went to open up the cabinet I felt like something happened to my head the noise that the man upstairs was making was affecting my thoughts and I didn’t feel like myself I felt very uncomfortable I was twitching inside of my face my nerves feel bad and my veins are not as visible I don’t feel like a normal person I pray that I start to feel normal again and that I get back to myself and heal and grow I pray for brighter days I pray for healing I pray for strength and protection I pray to open up my own business one day I pray to lose weight I pray to become a model I pray for my teeth to grow back I pray to stop overeating and to be happy I pray to get away from negative people I pray for brighter days I pray for my father to heal from mental illness