Othaireurron
Prayer Warrior
I pray for great health I pray for protection from the man upstairs I feel as if he’s trying to attack my head my throat and my arms and neck even my feet my entire body this guy is dropping things above me before I walk he’s jealous of me and wants me to act a certain type of way I believe I don’t think he likes me he overheard me making noise when my brother was inside the apartment it’s like he dictates who moves around the apartment he’s insane I saw him on the elevator a couple of years ago I had apologized for saying things about him to people in my building he found out that I was talking about him people were running back sharing what I told them with him that’s why I don’t like to talk and discuss other things with folks he should of stayed quiet whoever went back and told him was trying to make him aware of me as if I was talking bad of him I don’t like this building I felt like their was a lot of negative people who stayed here and I used to tell people of the building and how I didn’t like it I’m realizing now that I should of kept certain things to myself because people run back and say things I pray for a new home I pray for a new car I pray for brighter days I pray for healing from my past I pray for my body to heal and for me to start taking better care of myself and not worry about people and just be happy I was stressing over my mother for years I let her tear me down and get the best of me me and her used to do everything together I felt as if I didn’t want To be around her all the time I had wanted to be around friends too but I also realized That some of my friends didn’t treat me well and that they really weren’t my friends I have to take better care of myself love myself More and be a righteous woman I pray for my health to be better so I can dress up again and start going out more I’m usually inside I don’t have any income I pray for a new job I pray for brighter days I pray for strength and protection I used to fight and argue with my mother and my brother a lot I pray for healing I’m still unable to trust my brother because he got a restraining order out on me and at times he acted like he didn’t even know who I was he would talk towards my cousin and treat her better I felt as if they were real close he said I had issues and that I was crazy I was saying things of myeisha which is my cousin and was paranoid and didn’t like her being in the kitchen whenever I would be using the bathroom I felt as if she was listening towards me I told her that I was going to tell her mother me and her got into a argument before and she had said that she wasn’t looking at me or watching me but I felt like she was I saw her standing there In the kitchen dropping everything I didn’t like staying there I felt like I had health problems when I stayed over their house my neck felt strange I hated my body I also went to church and felt traumatized and afraid of three women who would watch me open up the Bible every time I was around the church sitting down I would feel them watching me and one of the girls would walk behind me doing strange things I didn’t like know her she was way younger than me hating on me and watching me her and the other girls would hug everybody and walk around as if they were blessed or so happy I don’t judge but I been going to that church before them I never had saw them there that was my first time seeing them there and I hadn’t noticed them I pray for strength and healing that church made me sad and depressed it’s open everyday but I don’t go it’s like a Hispanic church but they have a translator and I would prefer for my church pastor or preacher to speak English so I don’t have to have any misunderstandings I didn’t like myself for a long time I was walking around to the park I felt bad energy about this park I hated it and couldn’t stand it I pray for better days and that I start to focus and take better care of my health eat healthier foods and just do the right thing I felt as if I would argue with a lot of people inside of the building it was very negative I hated it that I would argue with them and be that way I pray to heal and to become a better woman and learn to trust and put God first and start brushing my teeth and start to wash up everyday the water that comes out of the bath doesn’t run properly I feel like the guy upstairs play with something because the water comes out shaky like something is clogging it and then I would have to get out even when I brush my teeth and put water inside of my mouth I feel like a person is next door waiting for me to grab something and they would bang on the wall even when I would have my back turned using the bathroom I feel as if somebody would be behind me I could hear them dropping things I just pray for a new home so I can take long hot baths and nice showers and be healthy and comfortable and not rush out the bathroom or the house that’s what I’ve been doing for a long time even when I sleep I lay on one side of the bed I don’t feel right in the bed I sleep in I kept sitting up I felt as someone was walking over me when I was asleep and I developed a tear inside Of my back I probably pulled a muscle that’s serious I’m too young for those type of issues I pray that the tear in my back heals I pray to heal from flat feet I pray for my neck to heal and my head and my back I pray for my face to feel normal again and to stop twitching even my eyes they get watery a Lot and I rub them even the nerves in my legs I don’t feel them I don’t feel connected with my body my veins barely show my body never used to be that way I feel as if ever since I started staying inside Of my mothers bathroom that’s when I started to feel different I felt guilty for wishing death on my mother and her bf I still do it’s eating me alive I feel as if I always worried of my health and that I have to get my own place so I can think about things relax and heal I feel traumatized even with living with my mother I felt like she didn’t like me and her behavior used to be very strange and weird she would go to supermarkets just to get one thing that bothered me and she would have groceries and not want me to help her put it inside Of the cart I felt like she also would drive very fast when I was inside the car with her I hated it she would drive in circles and my stomach Would turn I would have to kick my feet out To prevent from Falling over I pray for my own car She allowed her bf who died to drive her truck before me she moved him inside the apartment and kept saying that I was grown I would leave the house a lot I was walking around at the park alone by myself it was bad I didn’t even know anybody at them parks and would just be at the park one man stalked me and told my dad that he wanted to marry me I told him who my dad was and I should have never done that just like when I had told my teacher at trade school to have poets come to his art gallery he used my idea and created a lot of wealth and didn’t allow me to help he told me that I could use his art gallery as a place of employment on my resume to better help me find a job but I felt as if I should have kept my comments to myself then I was dating a guy who barely was taking care of himself he used to say I was always upset he wasn’t a bad looking guy a bit chubby not what I would go for I just pray for my health to be better and for me to get back to myself I pray for happiness and healing I pray for peace I pray for joy I pray for better health I pray to use discernment and To make better choices over my life I pray for new friends or new acquaintance so I don’t Be bored I was alone for years not doing much with myself but going in and out of mental hospitals it was bad I hated it my mother wanted me to go because I wasn’t taking showers and I felt as if I shouldn’t go but I went anyways and came back with more weight on me I was eating a lot when I was at the hospital eating and sleeping I would exercise during groups but I hated being there I felt as if I didn’t belong there I was overly stressed out always thinking the worst about things hating myself hating my life and wanting better for myself I felt as if my mother would stress me out and I just wanted her to like what I was doing with myself and to support me and go out and do things but I realize now that I have to mind my own business not everyone likes the same things I pray to lose weight and for my stomach to be flat and to start working out again I pray for brighter days I pray for a new home I pray for a new job I pray to heal from any sort of mental illness I pray for my father to heal from mental illness I pray that my nerves heal I pray that my teeth grow back and for my voice to come back as well I pray for forgiveness from all of my past sins