Rico
Beloved Servant
Please pray for Ursula's mom who has been hospitalized for the second time this month (fainting, dizzy spells, nausea). Her conditioning is puzzling the doctors somewhat. They might not be able to help BUT GOD can. Please also pray for her husband suffering from progressing dementia who is struggling with the situation. Please pray for healing and encouragement. Also, please pray for Juditha in Oregon who has been diagnosed with stage IV cancer. Please pray for a healing miracle. Jesus is able. May he receive all the glory. Please also continue uplifting my family situation in your prayers. I don't recall ever going through a struggle like this one. Its like Satan is attacking me at the very core of my being, trying to rip my heart out. If any of you have children and you imagine they are kept from you for months and you don't know how they are doing.. you know the person they are with is emotionally unstable and has been abusive towards the child at least emotionally and verbally. And then think you might have played a part in putting the child through this. Oh Lord, the darkness of my thoughts ...the panic and fear I encounter... the deep pain of loss and helplessness that is so strong it grabs my entire being....the horrible things I want to do to the person carrying out the abuse and those enabling it when I should be loving and forgiving... Satan is having a feast and I don't know how to stop it....I call on Jesus almost 24/7... I pray against Satan covering myself with the blood of Jesus and Jesus comforts me in times of prayer and worship but as soon as I tend to some daily chores etc. the fierce attacks resume. I have had thoughts of ending my life which I know the enemy would love for me to do and that it is his aim to kill, steal and destroy... O prayer warriors thank God for you for standing in the gap...I know you are a big part in me still being here....and thank Jesus for bringing the victory...Just pray I won't give up and that I will do what I must do...please Lord direct me. And Lord forgive me forgive me forgive me for these dark thoughts that keep crawling back into my mind.