Fierdarundeth
Disciple of Prayer
I pray for great health
I pray for a new free phone
I was diagnosed with schizophrenia and bipolar disorder
I don’t have any bipolar issues
I pray for healing
I pray to get back to myself
I try so hard to heal
I pray for better days
I pray for healing from mild scoliosis from the tear in my back
I pray that stranger things stop happening to me
I pray for better days
I pray to get back to myself
I pray for protection from the man upstairs
He seems to be doing strange things through the walls near the TV
It’s like he knows I’m looking at the TV so he starts to make noise near the TV
It’s like he’s flickering something back and forth and I can’t even enjoy watching TV
Even when I’m asleep I feel him near my head making noise while I sleep
It’s like he doesn’t want me to be able to sleep peacefully
He wants me to be up walking around and I can’t take that
I pray for better days
I pray for healing
I pray to get back to myself
I pray for brighter days so I can be happy and not be stressed out
Even when I was working at a warehouse and I was pressing buttons on the lineup and my fingers felt strange
It’s like I had some sort of nerve damage when I went to a neurologist years ago that’s what she had told me that I had
I pray for healing and that my hands go back to normal
I miss doing things with my hands and just being comfortable and being at peace
I tried to go to a church but every time I go there I feel worse
I felt like something was happening to my body when I was sitting down and I didn’t like that
I pray for better days
I pray for peace, love, joy, and happiness
I pray to forgive myself for wishing death on my mother and her ex-bf
They were attacking me he kept on talking bad about me and I didn’t feel comfortable with him inside the house
I felt like he had a crush on me
He would talk to me on social media and he would tell me that I’m beautiful like my mother there
I didn’t think he was flirting but I got perv vibes from him and that scared me and bothered me
I pray for healing and that I get back to myself
I’ve been traveling visiting many different churches
I pray for healing and that I get back to myself
I pray that my mind heals its as if my thoughts don’t seem normal
I pray for healing and better days
I pray for strength and protection
I pray for a new home
I’ve been praying a lot
I would like to move to a new neighborhood
I don’t like any of my neighbors
I don’t like the man next door nor do I like the guy across the hall or the man that lives upstairs
I pray for strength and for healing
I pray for my mind to heal
I had a nightmare last night and I haven’t had one of those in a very long time
I went to church two days in a row and when I was in the church I felt okay but afterwards I felt like something was troubling me
I pray to heal and to get back to myself
I always feel worse going to that church from when I first came in and this was the same church that healed me years ago
I pray for healing and to get back to myself
I pray for my body to heal so I can enjoy life again enjoy conversing with people enjoy walks again and running and smiling and being happy
It’s like I can’t even put a smile just because or laugh how I want
I pray that my eyes heal so that I can get back to myself
The guy upstairs did something to my eyes when I was asleep he was above me making a bunch of noise
It’s like he was spiteful and vengeful and wanted to make me feel some sort of way
I pray for healing and that I get back to myself
He’s been attacking my skin my eyes my brain my teeth my chewing my legs my feet my body my head my back my face for a very long time
I pray for peace, protection, healing
I pray for happiness
I pray for a new job so I can keep myself busy make new friends and just be happy
The old friends I had were not for me
I felt like one of my friends that I had known for years started to like my bf that I was dating at the time
I knew he liked her because he tweeted on Twitter when you choose the wrong friend and he would always try to ask or get her to go out on dinner dates with us and he would always hit her up trying to figure out where I was at and he had my phone number he could have just texted me
I didn’t like him for doing that
I only dated him to get back at my ex at the time he was cheating on me with multiple women and we were young so I decided to cheat back and start dating his friend then his friend started to like my friend
I pray for healing and forgiveness
I pray for brighter days
I pray for my health to heal so that I can enjoy life again so I can get dressed up again and go to New York City and enjoy life and make new friends and go out on dates and enjoy the weather when it’s warm outside
I pray for healing and to get back to myself
I pray for my talking to get better
I was talking and I was standing in my kitchen and the lady from the pack team she comes into my house and she always moves her legs in strange positions even her eyes over the phone
It’s like her face twitches a lot when she’s around me and I feel worried uncomfortable around her now
She sits down when she comes inside of my house she doesn’t just stand up and rush out like she did before
One of the men that worked with the pack team he left he was very kind towards me he would buy me lunch and always make sure that I eat
I pray for peace so I can wash up comfortably and brush my teeth and wash my hands and sit down and relax in peace
It’s like I have no control over my body
I pray for healing and peace and that I get back to myself
I pray for my body to heal so I can look good and feel good
I gained weight I’m overweight and it shows inside of my face
I pray for brighter days and for healing
I pray to heal from that last friendship that I was in
She gave me a look and barely said hi or spoken towards me when she saw me when I had went to her house on her birthday and she had invited the guy that I was dating the guy that she was talking to and texting and didn’t tell me he liked her
She finally had told me when I had asked her she said that he was trying to get with her but she told me when I had brought it up she wasn’t going to say anything about him trying to get with her
I don’t trust her
I still tried to befriend her and hit her up to chill and hang out because she was my friend for years and it’s like she would not want to hang out with me or chill
She would hang out with another one of our friends and she even got an apartment with her instead of deciding to ask me
I was working at Kmart at the time barely making money but then I stopped so I wouldn’t have been able to afford living with her but I could have found another job
I pray for my own apartment to live in a nice building one that’s better than the building that I live in now
I always felt bad vibes from one of the kids that used to stay inside of the building him and his sister used to stand away from me and soon as I would open up the door she would turn her head or if I walk down the stairs she would move her feet and she also grabbed her brother when I had got on the elevator and she moved over when I was standing on the elevator with her then she started listening towards me when I was saying something on the staircase about how she wasn’t speaking back when I would speak with her and she would just listen to me and not say anything back
She probably thought I was ill but she knew that her not speaking was frustrating me
I pray to heal from all the pain and trauma that she’s caused me
I pray to heal from when her brother would sit on the staircase and he wouldn’t move when I would walk past and one of the guys had to tell him to move
I used to try and speak with the young girl who would be sitting on the staircase with her mother but then I heard her mother say that I was crazy when I was walking and she would always stare at me from the staircase and watch me
I felt as if something was off with her
She used to always be mean she was short and had an attitude and I felt like I didn’t like being around her
She tried to make me feel stupid when I was working the polls
I pray for better days
I pray for a new home
I pray for a new car so I don’t have to walk around everywhere
I have to renew my driver’s license
I pray that I don’t have to retake the actual road test over again
I pray that they let me renew it
I didn’t check the date that it expired it expired on my birthday that’s when I was supposed to renew it
I pray that I am able to pay for it and get a duplicate and not have to do anything else
I pray for a new car so I can travel at my own rate and not have to wait on the bus or anything like that
I can have my own and travel when and wherever I want
I pray to heal and to get back to myself
I used to be confident and I know a lot of people
I pray that I get back to myself
I don’t want to seem ill, crazy, or stressed out
I used to always speak with people and I was happy
I pray that I get back to being happy
I pray for protection from the man next door
I can feel him just listening to me whenever I’m in the house
He would listen to me use the bathroom
I would be reaching for the tissue and I could feel someone in the bathroom or behind me through the walls
It’s like he’s waiting for me to move and he’s trying to enmesh himself with me
I felt like when I was arguing with my mother one day he was listening
Even some dark-skinned guy I think it was his nephew who would stay with him
He would be really loud coming inside of the house
He would move his body to the opposite side and I felt as if he was very toxic
He would do things with his body that would make me not feel like myself
I couldn’t stand him when he would come there after he would get off of work
I felt like the room I sleep in I could never get comfortable
I felt that way about the bed that I was sleeping in at my aunt’s house and my grandmother’s house
I didn’t like it
I pray for healing and I pray for better days
I pray that my body heals
I feel under attack wherever I go
They diagnosed me with schizophrenia
I be feeling as if I can’t relax or as if someone is always trying to compete with me
When I was walking past a street some girl started staring at me trying to size me up and I don’t even know her
I was just walking
Another boy who used to stay inside of my building used to do the same thing
He would walk behind me and he would seem like he better than me or he’s this dude like he didn’t like me or wanted to lower my confidence or my self-esteem
I felt as if something was wrong with him with him and his whole family
He was strange and he would never speak
He looked at his brother when he saw me and acted as if I shouldn’t be walking down the elevator
I felt as if his mother told him that I was using her wifi
I should have never asked her for it
She was rushing me off of my laptop
She opened the hallway door and said I was making her internet go slow and she needed to use her wifi for her business
I pray that things go well with me
I pray for a new home that has cable that has the internet
I pray for a working phone that has the internet as well
I used to have an iPhone it was my mother’s phone and it stopped working
I pray that things workout for me and that things get better for me
I pray for new friends
I haven’t been out in a while or surrounded by people my age
I stay in the house a lot and try to heal and get better
I pray for better days
I pray for healing
I pray to workout and to start taking better care of my health and eating better foods
I was eating a lot of everything especially when I was hospitalized in the psych ward
I didn’t know what to do with myself
I felt as if the staff members didn’t like me
I felt crazy out of place
I got in trouble from one of the staff members for having the door closed and my roommate had closed it
She would always close the door behind her
I felt as if another one of my roommates would sleep all the way up to the top of the bed
She was really short and she would talk about men she was dating a guy that was inside the same psych ward that we were in and she had already been dating someone else
I don’t judge but I didn’t want to hear that
I was trying to go home that was stressing me out
I pray that things get better for me
I pray that I heal and get back to myself so that I never have to visit another psych ward again
I’ve been to plenty of psych wards
I just don’t like being there or being away from home and not having freedom to do things that I would like to do
I pray for a new job
I would like to open up my own business and talk about what I have been through
I was speaking with strangers out on the streets about my health asking them how I look and if things looked okay with me
One of the women got upset with me and told me that she felt offended but I don’t even remember speaking towards her so she started looking at me on the bus and watching me and not wanting me to sit down next to her
She had said something to me at the bus stop and embarrassed me and the guy at the bus stop was staring and he must of heard her say she felt offended or that it bothered her of me asking her questions of myself
Even when I was working at Bed Bath and Beyond they felt worried about me
One of the customers had went back and told my manager that I said how I felt towards her
I felt as if an evil spirit had gotten control over me
It started off with my feet like I felt weird
I felt like my head felt weird and my voice even my face my neck back and hands
I didn’t feel like myself for years
I felt worried and stressed especially over people who used to turn me off and make me mad and upset
I had a mental illness
I was trying to do the law of attraction and started speaking things over my life and I felt like I started talking too much and started talking to myself a lot and I would sit in parks alone talking to myself
I would sit at other people’s businesses and they would tell me that I couldn’t stay there
I was inside of Dunkin’ Donuts with my laptop and the guy told me that that was a place of business and that I couldn’t stay there so I had to leave
I hated my home
I didn’t get along with my mother or my brother and they barely spoke to each other it was awful
I pray that things get better for me and that I get back to myself
I pray for protection from the man upstairs and to heal from whatever is troubling me and bothering me for years
I had issues with women that would live inside of the building
I felt bad vibes from one of the women that lived inside of the building
I felt as if she was envious of me and I told her about the man upstairs
She had went back to another person the maintenance lady and said that I was talking about the guy that lived upstairs
It was either her or the Hispanic lady because I was sitting out in the hallway and it had to either be either one of them or the gay guy who went back and told I was all over the place trying to use gift cards traveling far with barely having any money
I had bags with me with clothes I was staying inside of hotels it was very bad
I pray to heal from doing that and to live in a home and find peace within my home
I pray for happiness
I pray for love
I pray for peace
I pray for protection
I pray for brighter days
I pray for strength
I pray for my teeth to grow back and to heal
I pray to lose weight
I pray for my body, soul, mind to heal and to be at peace
I pray for a new home so I can relax and be at peace
I don’t like my neighbors and would like to move
I don’t like the man who lives next door whenever he sees me
I feel as if he drives really fast or he would just be standing still
I pray for brighter days and that my body heals and go back to normal
I pray for better days
I pray for a new free phone
I was diagnosed with schizophrenia and bipolar disorder
I don’t have any bipolar issues
I pray for healing
I pray to get back to myself
I try so hard to heal
I pray for better days
I pray for healing from mild scoliosis from the tear in my back
I pray that stranger things stop happening to me
I pray for better days
I pray to get back to myself
I pray for protection from the man upstairs
He seems to be doing strange things through the walls near the TV
It’s like he knows I’m looking at the TV so he starts to make noise near the TV
It’s like he’s flickering something back and forth and I can’t even enjoy watching TV
Even when I’m asleep I feel him near my head making noise while I sleep
It’s like he doesn’t want me to be able to sleep peacefully
He wants me to be up walking around and I can’t take that
I pray for better days
I pray for healing
I pray to get back to myself
I pray for brighter days so I can be happy and not be stressed out
Even when I was working at a warehouse and I was pressing buttons on the lineup and my fingers felt strange
It’s like I had some sort of nerve damage when I went to a neurologist years ago that’s what she had told me that I had
I pray for healing and that my hands go back to normal
I miss doing things with my hands and just being comfortable and being at peace
I tried to go to a church but every time I go there I feel worse
I felt like something was happening to my body when I was sitting down and I didn’t like that
I pray for better days
I pray for peace, love, joy, and happiness
I pray to forgive myself for wishing death on my mother and her ex-bf
They were attacking me he kept on talking bad about me and I didn’t feel comfortable with him inside the house
I felt like he had a crush on me
He would talk to me on social media and he would tell me that I’m beautiful like my mother there
I didn’t think he was flirting but I got perv vibes from him and that scared me and bothered me
I pray for healing and that I get back to myself
I’ve been traveling visiting many different churches
I pray for healing and that I get back to myself
I pray that my mind heals its as if my thoughts don’t seem normal
I pray for healing and better days
I pray for strength and protection
I pray for a new home
I’ve been praying a lot
I would like to move to a new neighborhood
I don’t like any of my neighbors
I don’t like the man next door nor do I like the guy across the hall or the man that lives upstairs
I pray for strength and for healing
I pray for my mind to heal
I had a nightmare last night and I haven’t had one of those in a very long time
I went to church two days in a row and when I was in the church I felt okay but afterwards I felt like something was troubling me
I pray to heal and to get back to myself
I always feel worse going to that church from when I first came in and this was the same church that healed me years ago
I pray for healing and to get back to myself
I pray for my body to heal so I can enjoy life again enjoy conversing with people enjoy walks again and running and smiling and being happy
It’s like I can’t even put a smile just because or laugh how I want
I pray that my eyes heal so that I can get back to myself
The guy upstairs did something to my eyes when I was asleep he was above me making a bunch of noise
It’s like he was spiteful and vengeful and wanted to make me feel some sort of way
I pray for healing and that I get back to myself
He’s been attacking my skin my eyes my brain my teeth my chewing my legs my feet my body my head my back my face for a very long time
I pray for peace, protection, healing
I pray for happiness
I pray for a new job so I can keep myself busy make new friends and just be happy
The old friends I had were not for me
I felt like one of my friends that I had known for years started to like my bf that I was dating at the time
I knew he liked her because he tweeted on Twitter when you choose the wrong friend and he would always try to ask or get her to go out on dinner dates with us and he would always hit her up trying to figure out where I was at and he had my phone number he could have just texted me
I didn’t like him for doing that
I only dated him to get back at my ex at the time he was cheating on me with multiple women and we were young so I decided to cheat back and start dating his friend then his friend started to like my friend
I pray for healing and forgiveness
I pray for brighter days
I pray for my health to heal so that I can enjoy life again so I can get dressed up again and go to New York City and enjoy life and make new friends and go out on dates and enjoy the weather when it’s warm outside
I pray for healing and to get back to myself
I pray for my talking to get better
I was talking and I was standing in my kitchen and the lady from the pack team she comes into my house and she always moves her legs in strange positions even her eyes over the phone
It’s like her face twitches a lot when she’s around me and I feel worried uncomfortable around her now
She sits down when she comes inside of my house she doesn’t just stand up and rush out like she did before
One of the men that worked with the pack team he left he was very kind towards me he would buy me lunch and always make sure that I eat
I pray for peace so I can wash up comfortably and brush my teeth and wash my hands and sit down and relax in peace
It’s like I have no control over my body
I pray for healing and peace and that I get back to myself
I pray for my body to heal so I can look good and feel good
I gained weight I’m overweight and it shows inside of my face
I pray for brighter days and for healing
I pray to heal from that last friendship that I was in
She gave me a look and barely said hi or spoken towards me when she saw me when I had went to her house on her birthday and she had invited the guy that I was dating the guy that she was talking to and texting and didn’t tell me he liked her
She finally had told me when I had asked her she said that he was trying to get with her but she told me when I had brought it up she wasn’t going to say anything about him trying to get with her
I don’t trust her
I still tried to befriend her and hit her up to chill and hang out because she was my friend for years and it’s like she would not want to hang out with me or chill
She would hang out with another one of our friends and she even got an apartment with her instead of deciding to ask me
I was working at Kmart at the time barely making money but then I stopped so I wouldn’t have been able to afford living with her but I could have found another job
I pray for my own apartment to live in a nice building one that’s better than the building that I live in now
I always felt bad vibes from one of the kids that used to stay inside of the building him and his sister used to stand away from me and soon as I would open up the door she would turn her head or if I walk down the stairs she would move her feet and she also grabbed her brother when I had got on the elevator and she moved over when I was standing on the elevator with her then she started listening towards me when I was saying something on the staircase about how she wasn’t speaking back when I would speak with her and she would just listen to me and not say anything back
She probably thought I was ill but she knew that her not speaking was frustrating me
I pray to heal from all the pain and trauma that she’s caused me
I pray to heal from when her brother would sit on the staircase and he wouldn’t move when I would walk past and one of the guys had to tell him to move
I used to try and speak with the young girl who would be sitting on the staircase with her mother but then I heard her mother say that I was crazy when I was walking and she would always stare at me from the staircase and watch me
I felt as if something was off with her
She used to always be mean she was short and had an attitude and I felt like I didn’t like being around her
She tried to make me feel stupid when I was working the polls
I pray for better days
I pray for a new home
I pray for a new car so I don’t have to walk around everywhere
I have to renew my driver’s license
I pray that I don’t have to retake the actual road test over again
I pray that they let me renew it
I didn’t check the date that it expired it expired on my birthday that’s when I was supposed to renew it
I pray that I am able to pay for it and get a duplicate and not have to do anything else
I pray for a new car so I can travel at my own rate and not have to wait on the bus or anything like that
I can have my own and travel when and wherever I want
I pray to heal and to get back to myself
I used to be confident and I know a lot of people
I pray that I get back to myself
I don’t want to seem ill, crazy, or stressed out
I used to always speak with people and I was happy
I pray that I get back to being happy
I pray for protection from the man next door
I can feel him just listening to me whenever I’m in the house
He would listen to me use the bathroom
I would be reaching for the tissue and I could feel someone in the bathroom or behind me through the walls
It’s like he’s waiting for me to move and he’s trying to enmesh himself with me
I felt like when I was arguing with my mother one day he was listening
Even some dark-skinned guy I think it was his nephew who would stay with him
He would be really loud coming inside of the house
He would move his body to the opposite side and I felt as if he was very toxic
He would do things with his body that would make me not feel like myself
I couldn’t stand him when he would come there after he would get off of work
I felt like the room I sleep in I could never get comfortable
I felt that way about the bed that I was sleeping in at my aunt’s house and my grandmother’s house
I didn’t like it
I pray for healing and I pray for better days
I pray that my body heals
I feel under attack wherever I go
They diagnosed me with schizophrenia
I be feeling as if I can’t relax or as if someone is always trying to compete with me
When I was walking past a street some girl started staring at me trying to size me up and I don’t even know her
I was just walking
Another boy who used to stay inside of my building used to do the same thing
He would walk behind me and he would seem like he better than me or he’s this dude like he didn’t like me or wanted to lower my confidence or my self-esteem
I felt as if something was wrong with him with him and his whole family
He was strange and he would never speak
He looked at his brother when he saw me and acted as if I shouldn’t be walking down the elevator
I felt as if his mother told him that I was using her wifi
I should have never asked her for it
She was rushing me off of my laptop
She opened the hallway door and said I was making her internet go slow and she needed to use her wifi for her business
I pray that things go well with me
I pray for a new home that has cable that has the internet
I pray for a working phone that has the internet as well
I used to have an iPhone it was my mother’s phone and it stopped working
I pray that things workout for me and that things get better for me
I pray for new friends
I haven’t been out in a while or surrounded by people my age
I stay in the house a lot and try to heal and get better
I pray for better days
I pray for healing
I pray to workout and to start taking better care of my health and eating better foods
I was eating a lot of everything especially when I was hospitalized in the psych ward
I didn’t know what to do with myself
I felt as if the staff members didn’t like me
I felt crazy out of place
I got in trouble from one of the staff members for having the door closed and my roommate had closed it
She would always close the door behind her
I felt as if another one of my roommates would sleep all the way up to the top of the bed
She was really short and she would talk about men she was dating a guy that was inside the same psych ward that we were in and she had already been dating someone else
I don’t judge but I didn’t want to hear that
I was trying to go home that was stressing me out
I pray that things get better for me
I pray that I heal and get back to myself so that I never have to visit another psych ward again
I’ve been to plenty of psych wards
I just don’t like being there or being away from home and not having freedom to do things that I would like to do
I pray for a new job
I would like to open up my own business and talk about what I have been through
I was speaking with strangers out on the streets about my health asking them how I look and if things looked okay with me
One of the women got upset with me and told me that she felt offended but I don’t even remember speaking towards her so she started looking at me on the bus and watching me and not wanting me to sit down next to her
She had said something to me at the bus stop and embarrassed me and the guy at the bus stop was staring and he must of heard her say she felt offended or that it bothered her of me asking her questions of myself
Even when I was working at Bed Bath and Beyond they felt worried about me
One of the customers had went back and told my manager that I said how I felt towards her
I felt as if an evil spirit had gotten control over me
It started off with my feet like I felt weird
I felt like my head felt weird and my voice even my face my neck back and hands
I didn’t feel like myself for years
I felt worried and stressed especially over people who used to turn me off and make me mad and upset
I had a mental illness
I was trying to do the law of attraction and started speaking things over my life and I felt like I started talking too much and started talking to myself a lot and I would sit in parks alone talking to myself
I would sit at other people’s businesses and they would tell me that I couldn’t stay there
I was inside of Dunkin’ Donuts with my laptop and the guy told me that that was a place of business and that I couldn’t stay there so I had to leave
I hated my home
I didn’t get along with my mother or my brother and they barely spoke to each other it was awful
I pray that things get better for me and that I get back to myself
I pray for protection from the man upstairs and to heal from whatever is troubling me and bothering me for years
I had issues with women that would live inside of the building
I felt bad vibes from one of the women that lived inside of the building
I felt as if she was envious of me and I told her about the man upstairs
She had went back to another person the maintenance lady and said that I was talking about the guy that lived upstairs
It was either her or the Hispanic lady because I was sitting out in the hallway and it had to either be either one of them or the gay guy who went back and told I was all over the place trying to use gift cards traveling far with barely having any money
I had bags with me with clothes I was staying inside of hotels it was very bad
I pray to heal from doing that and to live in a home and find peace within my home
I pray for happiness
I pray for love
I pray for peace
I pray for protection
I pray for brighter days
I pray for strength
I pray for my teeth to grow back and to heal
I pray to lose weight
I pray for my body, soul, mind to heal and to be at peace
I pray for a new home so I can relax and be at peace
I don’t like my neighbors and would like to move
I don’t like the man who lives next door whenever he sees me
I feel as if he drives really fast or he would just be standing still
I pray for brighter days and that my body heals and go back to normal
I pray for better days