Othaireurron
Prayer Warrior
I pray for great health I pray for a new home I pray for a new job I pray for a new car I pray for a new iPhone I pray for protection from my enemies I don’t like whoever is in the room that I’m in when I use the bathroom soon as I go to wash my hands or to get soap from out of the cabinet I can feel someone trying to grab these before me trying to battle with me and compete with me it’s like they were listening to my hands trying to outthink me I know it’s a man that’s doing that he’s inside of the bathroom this is the same man who was listening to me when I was getting something out of the closet he was listening when something had dropped inside of my house he had moved his feet quickly even when he heard me arguing with my mother he walked off I was sitting on the floor I felt like somebody was listening to me walk the guy next door would stand by the side of the wall because I was standing in the room and felt like he was standing by the wall listening to me it’s like he had did something towards the floors inside of the house inside of my brothers bedroom I don’t like him I felt like my body was different even when I was living with my aunt I felt as if something was wrong with me I was walking on the floors back and forth and felt like her neighbors upstairs and downstairs could hear me walking and my private area felt weird I felt as if my cousin didn’t like me I saw how she started looking at me when I was walking around she started walking faster and she did something with her head she would sit down on the couch with her arms folded and she would speak with her aunt on the phone I felt as if she didn’t want me there or she thought I was crazy or a punk even when I was standing up she went to turn on the lights right in front of me didn’t say sorry or excuse me and started doing laundry right in front of me It felt strange being there at my aunts house then she would treat my brother better than she had treated me she would always talk of herself a lot about how she has good hair and how people would compliment her I would see her walking and I felt like she thought she was this person I was not myself and worried about a lot of things I was worried about people I had stopped taking care of myself and would walk around everywhere catching buses it Was bad my mother wanted me To stop going to the hospital I would always go I hated staying home I just was going to the hospital to travel and to have something to do I don’t like the house I’m in I’m not myself haven’t been years I felt as if I used to see things on wall I see things moving back and forth I felt crazy I pray that things get better for me I pray for a new home so I can move out of this house and move into a better house it’s nothing to do here I feel negative from the man upstairs and the man next door I pray to heal and to get back to myself I pray for better days I pray for my mind To heal and my body and for me To just go back to being a normal person I don’t look healthy or look like myself I’ve gotten taller gained weight and just haven’t been myself I pray to heal from schizophrenia depression and anxiety I pray to get back to myself I let other people throw me off and mess me up I felt as if I traveled so much I barely had money to travel it was awful I would travel to ny without any money but they would always let me get back on the bus I hated myself I was surrounded by a bunch of random people I was all over the place I pray for healing and for better days I used to sit at the park a lot and sit around and just watch people not saying anything is wrong with that but instead of focusing on myself I felt jealous because I wasn’t busy or I wasn’t taking care Of myself I pray for better days I pray to heal from Allowing my cousin to project fear into me she scared me I tried to help them and be nice but I felt like she still was mean towards me I couldn’t stand her and felt bad I wanted to harm myself because I felt as if nothing was changing I would speak to God and I felt like things changed but I haven’t gotten what I really wanted I pray to heal and get back to myself a lot of people were jealous of me because I was beautiful and a really good looking person people used to hate the fact that me and my friend were friends I want to heal and become a better Woman I want to be able to heal and take care of myself I pray for better days I pray for healing I pray to start my own business one day I pray for my singing voice to come back it’s like I had lost my voice in general it feels weird when I talk I let people intimidate me and bring me down I was afraid of other women I felt scared I pray that I let go of fear and stop worrying of other women and people and learn to trust in myself again I had let my brother intimidate me and he used to have deep rooted issues he started to change and thought he was this dude he had a gf but never Worked or had a job he’s on welfare and collect benefits he was supposed to buy me hair conditioner it had only came up to $8 he ended up getting robbed I pray that things change for me and that they get better I pray for a new home so I can actually heal and start becoming the better version of myself I feel as if I can’t heal where I’m at even though I do feel a change I want to feel better I pray for a better environment to stay in I pray for my nerves to heal I pray for my body to heal I pray for my private areas to heal I was laying down bent over and it felt as if the guy upstairs did something to my bottom I don’t feel normal I pray for strength and healing I pray to heal from mental illness so I never have to go back to the hospital I pray that I can start to make music and write my own songs and publish them I’m very talented I felt as if it was a while before I had gotten back to myself I know how to sing dance rap and do poetry I want to learn how to play the guitar that’s always been something I wanted to learn I pray that I get back to myself and heal I pray that I start taking better care of my health and start eating better foods I pray to lose weight I pray to stop putting myself down I pray to stop allowing people to project fear onto me and to scare me I felt as if my aunts neighbors used to stare at me all the time when I would sit down on the porch I used to sit sideways or turn my back I was mad and upset I used to sit on the porch with my cousin and talk to him he’s a good man I pray that he finds a job one day and decides to go back to work he used to play basketball he’s tall but he had injured his knees I pray that he gets himself right I pray for my father to heal from his mental illness I pray for better days I pray for my teeth to grow back I pray for a flat stomach I pray for my nerves to heal I pray to heal from flat feet I pray to heal from mild scoliosis and flat feet I pray to heal and forgive myself from the past I pray for my eyes to go back to normal I pray for my overall health to be better I pray for my hair to grow back nice and healthy I pray for my neck to heal I pray for better days I pray for my relationship to heal and get better with the guy I’m dating I pray for a new job a new iPhone a new car I pray to stop saying things to people out on the streets and to stop being intimidated and worried about them I pray for happiness and better days