Othaireurron
Prayer Warrior
I pray for my health to get better I pray for a new home I pray for a new job I pray for a new car I pray for a new iphone I pray for better days I pray for healing from depression anxiety and schizophrenia for years I felt like my mother put stuff on my name she would tell people I used to get mad quick and she told them that I was depressed she would act strange around people sometimes I felt like something else used to bother her I pray for healing I pray for my own car so I can drive places and go places on my own without having to wait for anybody or having to wait to catch the bus sometimes the bus take a while to come I pray for my health to be better so I can enjoy life more and be happy I haven’t been happy in a really long time it’s like sadness took over I’ve been fearing life fearing people worrying about my fingers my feet my hands everything I was stressed out I felt as if I wasn’t myself I remember when I would have the house to myself and I would be asleep my mother would wake me up and start saying that I had to get up but I never had my own room I used to sleep with her in a bedroom even in high school that bothered me I wanted my own bedroom and my own space I wanted to decorate my room the way that I wanted to and it’s as if I couldn’t because she shared a room with me so that bothered me I pray that I can have my own home so I can relax listen to music without other people listening I feel like the guy next door listens to me in the bed when I’m listening to music and I don’t like that I felt like he did something to my face when I was asleep they was moving furniture and my entire face felt as if it had came off even when I was waiting for the bus the bus driver would watch me my face felt as if it had came off it felt weird I felt like I would scratch my face a lot and rub my hands and shake a lot when I caught the bus to get breakfast my hands were so cold one day even when I had put them inside of my pocket they still was freezing cold I never used to have income to catch the bus my uncle would buy me food and his mother would drop me off by my aunt Selema house I didn’t have a key to get inside of the house that was the worst time of my life my mother took the keys away from me I was staying with my aunt I hated it they would always tell me to go by your aunt house but I felt as if that wasn’t my home I felt like I wanted my own space so I could cook clean and just do things that I love to do I hated staying with my aunt she wasn’t a bad woman she did let me stay with her me and her daughter wasn’t getting along she didn’t kick me out or make me feel bad she just said that she was going to speak with her I pray that I can get back to myself and heal I felt as if something was wrong with my feet my feet were flat they felt numb I was getting muscle spasm a lot I hated that I pray that my feet heal it’s painful to walk I walk heavy on the ground I pray that I get back to myself that my feet heal so that I can walk properly and run and be healthy and fit I pray for healing from arguing with my cousin and being mad that she was watching me and staring at me even though that made me very uncomfortable I pray that I can heal from it because it’s making me hate my body and hate people staring at me some people stare because they may find others good looking I just pray that I get back to myself and become a better woman I pray to heal from being mean towards my brother and learn to treat people better he had mental issues he do as of now but he’s gotten better he lives with my uncle but he never worked or had a job before I pray that he finds a job I pray to heal from arguing and fighting with my mother and cursing back at her when she would curse at me and going back and forth with her I was rebellious and didn’t like for anybody to treat me bad I didn’t care who it was I wanted her to support me more and she did but I wanted her to be there more and it’s like when she did I would still be angry and upset with her I pray to get back to myself and heal and start my own business and heal from my childhood I pray for brighter days I pray for protection I pray for a new home I pray that my relationship with the guy I’m with gets stronger and better I pray that he becomes a man of God he doesn’t believe in the Bible he claim he used to be a preacher or a pastor when he was younger I pray for him and that he changes not only so he can better be there for us but so he can become a healthier version of himself I pray that he doesn’t want more than one wife and that he loves only me I love him and do want to be with him but I want him to be able to respect and accept me he hasn’t disrespected me he’s gentle and a very kind man I pray for the muscle spasm that he has to heal and for his health to be better I pray that he becomes committed and faithful I pray that we can have a family and that he cherishes our relationship I pray for healing from my past dealing with fake friends friend of mine betrayed me and she was texting my ex bf she was the same one who said I seemed happier when I was with him she was eyeing him must of been when we was at the club she was taking money from him and instead of us having a way to get home she wanted to buy drinks then some man had helped her when she was walking I didn’t feel comfortable around her at all I felt as if she changed but she always used to be that way even when we were younger she would talk of things that didn’t make sense to me and when it was my birthday she purposefully didn’t show up at school and that made me look at her different she would call me names she would call me black I heard her when she had said it she tried to ruin my self esteem and she would act different around her cousins and she was laughing at me when some woman was yelling at me she started whispering to her cousin and they both were talking down on me I feel as if they would talk bad about me and they thought less of me and would pick a couple of them did I didn’t like that I would hang around the middle section of the village that I used to stay in I couldn’t hang out with my friends everyday after a certain amount of time and would be outside sometimes I pray that things get better for me and that I heal and get back to myself I pray for my dad to heal from his mental illness I pray for my grandmother to heal from her legs hurting her I pray to start taking better care of myself my family started disliking the way I was carrying myself I wasn’t keeping myself up I was worried of people you can’t trust everyone and have to stay focused and find something that you would like to do I like playing with dolls only when I was younger and I liked doing my hair and I liked doing dressing up I pray that I start to get back to that I was creative and good at doing things as well I used to get along with my mother I had a bunch of friends at school but I didn’t like the school that I had went to I felt as if it was not righteous I pray that I get back to myself and heal I always had issues when I was growing up I am not sure but I didn’t have the perfect family my family went through a lot of trauma and I used to have a friend who envied me she didn’t like me and would talk bad about my family a couple of my friends did and now I’m not friends with them anymore the one friend I had used to talk down about my father he used to roam the streets a lot and walk around bare foot he would talk to himself out loud on the streets I was traumatized and didn’t know what had happened towards him he used to always dress up and take care of himself he was a clothing designer he used to always listen to good music and he helped me with my hw and would always ask me for kisses whenever he would leave the house I pray that he heals and so do I I felt bad for him he was in mental hospitals for years and I feel as if he thinks taking medication is the only thing that calms him he gained a ton of weight and he seems afraid of the world I pray that he gets himself back and be stable without having to take medication and for his mind to heal and his spirit and body to heal as well he’s a good guy I pray that his health be restored and that he’s able to run and walk and do things that he used to do I pray that he gets his confidence back and starts to take better care of himself he used to be a very confident man he was very wise smart he’s a Muslim there was a time I remember he was going to church but I don’t think he was himself then he was going to a church in a dark area I’m not sure what was going on it seemed suspicious and I felt scared for him and we would dress up and wear suits he had even cut his hair he wasn’t himself he used to have long dread locs that was his signature look he loved his hair and took good care of it I pray that he grows it back and that he starts to take good care of himself again I pray that he lose weight and get back to a healthy size I pray that he starts driving again I pray for better days I pray to forgive myself for acting the way I used to I pray that the guy forgives me for arguing with him on the staircase he would walk past me and give me a look he didn’t like me I could tell I haven’t been myself for some time now arguing with kids inside of the building saying things towards them I used to talk to myself a long time ago for hrs at the park acting as if I was fine I was sick it had gotten very bad my mother used to say to me are you talking to yourself I pray that I can heal I started listening to other people say that talking to yourself can change things I think I went over board and I kept doing it it was very bad I just pray that I’m forgiven I pray to allow God to be in control and for my mind to be set free from any demonic entities and for me to enjoy life and enjoy my time here on earth and to take care of myself I pray to take care of my body and to not be afraid of people inside of cars or be afraid of people walking I didn’t look like myself for some time and I used to always want to look good and always keep myself up I pray that I get back to that and that I become a better woman I pray to let go of madness anger sadness anxiety and depression I pray to heal from suicidal thoughts and not liking myself and wanting bad things to happen to other people I pray for peace love and happiness I pray for my features to come back and for my eye color to come back I have brown eyes and they show when I’m healthy and happy I know I’m not at my best self because my eyes aren’t glowing I pray to start taking better care of myself my health and my body I pray to heal from trauma heal from the past heal from depression and anxiety I pray to lose weight I pray for a flat stomach I pray for a new job a new home a new car a new iPhone