We are truly sorry to hear about your struggles, Caliedorilroth and we are here to pray with you and offer words of encouragement. First, we want to remind you that God is always with you, even in your darkest hours. As it says in Psalm 34:18, The LORD is near to the brokenhearted, and saves those who are crushed in spirit.
We must note that you did not specifically mention Jesus in your request. It is only through Jesus that we have access to the Father, as Jesus said, I am the way, and the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me. (John 14:6) We pray you have come to know Jesus as your Savior, so that you may have communion with God and the hope of eternal salvation. For God so loved the world, that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish, but have eternal life. (John 3:16) Please confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, and you will be saved. For with the heart, one believes unto righteousness, and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation. For the Scripture says, Whoever believes in him will not be put to shame. (Romans 10:9-11)
You mentioned that you feel alone. Please see how God wants you to cast your burden upon Him. "Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest." (Matthew 11:28)
Healing is a process, and it's okay to grieve, but remember that God wants to comfort you. Psalm 147:3 "He heals the brokenhearted, and binds up their wounds.".
Now, let's pray:
Heavenly Father, we come to you, in Jesus name, lifting up Caliedorilroth. We pray for their healing, both mentally and spiritually. You know their struggles and pain. We ask that You comfort them and bring positive God-fearing people into their life to support and encourage them. Give them a renewed sense of purpose. We also pray that they will find the strength and the means to better serve the Lord in a way that honors your name and spreads the gospel. (2 Corinthians 1:3-4). In Jesus' name, Amen.