Ifgen
Humble Servant of All
I pray for great health. I pray for a new home I feel like I'm constantly being under attack by the man next door and the man upstairs especially when I go to use the bathroom I have to turn on the light that makes noise because the elderly guy is standing by the bathroom wall and when I go to use the sink he goes on the side of the wall and starts banging on the wall soon as I turn the knob and when I'm laying down in the room I can feel him listening to me through the walls if I move hell move and he definitely put a spell on the floor or did some type of witchcraft to the bedroom floors inside of my brothers room I can feel him listening to me as soon as I walk through the door he's sick I feel like he got problems and so do the man upstairs he's constantly making a lot of noise and I feel under attack I don't feel safe here and I feel stuck here like he want to trap me and make me think that I can't move on or go anywhere and he used be in my business before and him and his wife used to always ask me questions I just pray that things get better for me and that I move away from this building I don't like it I never liked this building I feel like it's very spooky even the elevator I feel like it's haunted or something but I know I shouldn't be afraid still I pray for a new home so I can relax listen to music watch tv and be happy there's a lot of negativity out there and I just pray to heal and get better I let myself go by walking to the park a lot and sitting down on the grass I would do that and realize that not everyday I need to be doing things like I used to be alone a lot I stopped speaking with a lot of the people who I used to be friends with and they must've thought that something was wrong with me I was betrayed by a couple of them and would just like to heal and get back to myself I don't bother anyone but when I used to sit in my building out on the staircase a lot of people used to think I didn't live in the building I got into an argument with a lady because she was walking next to me bending down and I moved over and she got mad at me and called me homeless I went back and told my mother she started using that against me she was the one who told me to stay out of the hallway I used to sit out there because I didn't like my house I was being nice to the maintenance man I felt like he don't even like me no more I just pray that I can learn to just do the right things and stop hanging out in the hallways some gay man got mad at me their was two gay men who used to roll their eyes at me when I would be sitting down on the steps and I just pray that I can forgive myself for doing that and put it past me a lot of years I lived here ive been having issues with neighbors but because I used to hang around no one and my mother used to turn the TV off spitefully and turn off the wifi so I would have to leave the house she wouldn't even speak to me when she would leave the house in the mornings and she would tell me not to follow behind her she would not even defend me when I told her that the man next door was talking bad about me to one of his family members and he said he was just trying to help me as if I asked for his help he was minding my business but I'm not sure if my mother told him that I was sick she kept talking about my mental health and putting bad things on me saying that I was depressed or what not when I wasn't and she told people bad things about me and she used to just stare at me even while I'll be asleep she would be staring at my neck I didn't like that and didn't understand why she kept watching me and when I used to explain things to her she used to grab my arms and she would talk bad about me to my brother I know she told the people at the hospital that I had mental issues and they was talking down on me saying that I wasn't to be trusted and I didn't like that I used to travel a lot to different hospitals thinking that I would get help with my fingers and my problems I didn't work or have a phone with the internet to apply for a job so I used to walk around a lot and I was under a lot of stress and my mother didnt pick up the phone for me she would lock me out she took away the keys and when I had came back from the hospital she had gave me fake keys she would tell people from my dad's side of the family that I was suffering from schizophrenia and she said that she didn't say it the doctors said it I felt like people didn't like me based off my diagnosis staff members inside the hospital used to talk down on me it was very bad I even got into an argument one of the younger women was watching me and she didn't want me to move and I felt like their was tension between the both of us I pray for healing from staying inside the hospital and that I get better I pray that the man upstairs leave me alone and stop bothering me I feel like there's a lot of noise in the house and it never used to be that way and the noise is coming from him he's sick I feel as if he has mental issues I just pray for healing and that things get better for me I pray to be able to start my own business one day. I pray for a new car and a new iphone so I can make phone calls and text on it I pray to get healthy and for God to restore me back to good health I pray that my teeth grow back and I pray to be healed from mild scoliosis I pray for the tear in my back to be healed I pray for better days I pray that God heals my subconscious mind and my head and my entire body I pray to feel like a regular girl again I pray that I can heal from all of my health problems I pray for strength and protection I pray for a new job I would like to work and create my own business soon I pray to be protected from my enemies I pray that my eyes heal they seem to wonder I feel like the man upstairs did something to my eyes and it's like I don't have no peace I feel like he don't want me to be alive or he don't want.me.to.move around inside the house he don't like when I walk around or blast music or talk it's like he's always right there listening over me soon as I start to talk he start making noise and I just feel like he's listening I pray to heal and to get back to myself completely I feel like my mother used to humiliate me in front.of.my friends and she used to always say I was mean or had an attitude but I didn't.i.was.usually a happy person I felt like one of my friends used to be in competition with me I pray for healing and that things get better for me I pray that my neck heals and my head God please restore me back to good health