Anuja P. Desai
Disciple of Prayer
My name is ###. I am living in a small village in India. I don't know where to start. I am not eloquent in speech. I have been suffered immensely since my childhood due to high chronic disease. I was only ### years old when I was first diagnosed with a very rare and serious disease called ITP. ITP is an illness that can lead to bruising and bleeding. Low levels of the cells that help blood clot, also known as platelets, most often cause the bleeding and it is incurable. Since then, I have spent my childhood with extreme pain and agony. My heart breaks when I even remember my childhood days which I spent in vain with no accurate treatment. Still the said disease is not leaving me. My parents took me to different doctors but it didn't work out. I was even hospitalized and spent less time in school. Now I am adult and finally I met a doctor who is a hematologist and currently I am under his medical care. My health situation is now under control but he told me that this disease is incurable. I can't see tears from my parents eyes. They have suffered more than me because of me. Since my childhood, I was bullied in my school and college. I have no friends. People are using me for their own benefits. I am not matured enough to understand their intentions also, but still keeps helping them without expecting anything from them. I lost my happy childhood days. The most important and precious thing I have lost and the time will never revert back. I always had a traumatic experience. I am not here for any prayer request. I am so done. I don't know when would be my last day on this earth. But, my point is what's the purpose of living in this world when there is no hope to live a simple normal life? What God wants from me after all? Why did he even send me on this earth or should I say that I was born only to suffer?
