Ralma
Disciple of Prayer
Hello everybody, I don't know if anyone will even see this or reply but I am currently going through an extremely hard time. I never thought I'd see myself on this site. Being honest sometimes my faith falls short and in scenarios such as my current one where everything goes wrong I lose all hope. I lost my best friend at the beginning of the year, this best friend was my partner. She was my first love, my joy, my happiness, my sword and shield and she was the key to keeping me whole. I lost my best friend due to my mistakes and blindness. I left her for someone else who captivated me suddenly and unexpectedly. Throughout her departure due to my actions I began hurting internally, missing her everyday, reminiscing of our time and wishing I had done things differently. The person I left her for has hurt me, damaged me, used and abandoned me. I currently rest alone, hurt, humiliated and lost. I have recently lost the will to live, sometimes I have no energy to move forward and fight for myself. I wish my best friend would return and bring me back to the light I once had with her. I am running out of options and am scared that I will soon lose this battle. I want to continue living but I am scared as I don't know how to. I would appreciate if the community could help me in praying as that is all my mother has suggested to do as no other actions or resources have given me what I seek and need. I would appreciate any help I can receive, thank you.