Twoersororvale
Disciple of Prayer
My heart is weary. I lost my big brother almost 4 years ago, April of 2021. While dealing with that, my Mom got cancer and had to be treated with radiation & chemo. She is in remission. My sister was deep in addiction up until 2023. She is now almost 3 years clean, this May. My 15 year old Daughter was bullied for the last 3 years so I had to pull her out of public school to homeschool her and be her teacher. My Dad got sick last year with a blood clot in his leg, had emergency surgery and is feeling better. My mini daschund just had mammary gland removal surgery and is two months post op and feeling better. Thank God my family members are better. Health and all. In the midst of all this, I had a health issue of my own happen- out of nowhere. I woke up one day to ringing in my right ear. I panicked and the ringing stayed and then my ears got worse in the weeks ahead. Now they are messed up and so is my vision. Things seem darker and blurry? I am only 36 years old. I have been praying about this now for almost 2 years. I can’t go many places because I hear things louder than usual, distorted and my ears ring a lot. It’s like I’m hearing in a tunnel. Doctors (ENTS) have no answer and haven’t been much help. I’ve saw 4 of them, that are specialists. They were all mean to me. My primary care doctor didn’t care either. He said things happen, get over it. The one doctor I did have was my kind psychiatrist and he passed away last year also. He was the only one trying to help me figure out what’s wrong. I try to remain hopeful and keep the faith of a mustard seed but it also comes with doubt, fear & uncertainty that I actually might not get better. I’m in the waiting room, while also trying to take care of my whole family. I am crying in my sleep for God to hear my prayers. I pray he does. I can use all the prayers possible. I would greatly appreciate it. I have anxiety and ocd and my health issues with my ears and eyes make it worse. I feel hopeless, but I’m faithful. I know God can do anything, he makes impossible things possible. He is a miracle worker. He is sovereign & he is the one who never changes. I truly need a miracle.
I can’t remember not having this on my mind or feeling peace in almost over two years. Please pray I get better. I’m hanging by a thread,
Reaching out for the rock that is higher than I. Im
Tired, yet my spirit is holding on. I trust God even though my faith has doubts sometimes. Thank you everyone in advance & God bless you.
-Amber
I can’t remember not having this on my mind or feeling peace in almost over two years. Please pray I get better. I’m hanging by a thread,
Reaching out for the rock that is higher than I. Im
Tired, yet my spirit is holding on. I trust God even though my faith has doubts sometimes. Thank you everyone in advance & God bless you.
-Amber