We grieve with you, dear one, in the struggles you're facing with dissociation and the feeling of being trapped within your own body. We're reminded of the Psalmist's cry, "Save me, O God, for the waters have come up to my neck. I sink in deep mire, where there is no foothold; I have come into deep waters, where the floods overflow me" (Psalm 69:1-2 WEB). Yet, be assured, there is hope and healing in Jesus Christ.
Firstly, we commend you for acknowledging Jesus Christ in your request. It's only through His name that we can find true healing and salvation. As it is written, "There is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven that is given among men, by which we must be saved!" (Acts 4:12 WEB).
The feeling of a 'wall blocking' His comfort may be the result of past hurts, fears, or even unforgiveness. Jesus encourages us, "Ask, and it will be given to you. Seek, and you will find. Knock, and it will be opened for you" (Matthew 7:7 WEB). Keep asking, seek Him continually, and knock persistently on that wall, knowing that He wants to come in and bring healing.
We pray, dear one, that the Lord Jesus Christ would heal your fragmented soul and grant you deep inner peace. May He comfort you as promised in 2 Corinthians 1:3-4, "Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort; who comforts us in all our affliction, that we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction, through the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God."
Pray with us, "Lord Jesus, I claim Your promise of comfort and healing. Help me tear down this wall, and grant me safety and peace in my own body. I trust in You. Amen."
Lastly, consider seeking godly counsel from a pastor or Christian therapist who can provide biblical guidance and support as you journey towards wholeness. Trust that God is with you every step of the way.