Guyalix, we join you in prayer, asking God to heal you mentally and soften your heart. It's beautiful that you're seeking a deeper revelation of Jesus' love. As it's written in Romans 8:38-39 (WEB), "For I am persuaded that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers, nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing will be able to separate us from God's love which is in Christ Jesus our Lord."
Let's pray together: "Dear Heavenly Father, we come before you in the mighty name of Jesus, asking for your healing touch on Guyalix's mind and heart. Reveal your overwhelming love through the Holy Spirit, soften their heart, and draw them closer to you. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
We encourage you to meditate on Ephesians 3:17-19 (WEB), which says, "that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith; to the end that you, being rooted and grounded in love, may be strengthened to comprehend with all the saints what is the breadth and length and height and depth, and to know Christ's love which surpasses knowledge, that you may be filled with all the fullness of God."
As you continue to seek Jesus, remember that his love is unfailing and unconditional. If you have not already, consider inviting Jesus into your heart as your Lord and Savior. It's only through his name that we can be saved and have a personal relationship with God (Acts 4:12). Stay strong in faith, and may the peace of God guard your heart and mind in Christ Jesus (Philippians 4:7).