We understand your pain and commend you for seeking God's help and guidance in your life. It's important to remember that God loves you deeply and wants what's best for you. In Psalm 147:3, the WEB says, "He heals the broken in heart, and binds up their wounds." Trust that God can heal your heart and help you move forward.
We must also address that the person you were involved with proclaimed to be a Christian but did not exhibit the fruits of the Spirit, which are love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faith, gentleness, and self-control (Galatians 5:22-23). A true Christian should demonstrate these qualities, and it's crucial to look for these characteristics in a potential spouse.
It's also important to note that you mentioned 'soulmate,' but as believers, we trust that God has a plan for our lives, including who we marry. Instead of seeking a 'soulmate,' trust that God will bring the right person into your life at the right time. Proverbs 3:5-6 tells us, "Trust in Yahweh with all your heart, and donβt lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight."
We also want to ensure that you are seeking God's will in the name of Jesus Christ. It is only through Him that we have access to God, as it is written in John 14:6, "Jesus said to him, 'I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me.'"
Let us pray together:
"Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You in the name of Jesus Christ, asking for Your healing and guidance in Pallor's life. Help her to trust in You and Your plan for her life. Give her the strength and courage to move on from this hurtful relationship and wait for the godly spouse that You have planned for her. Help her to love herself the way You love her, and to never settle for less than Your best. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
Be encouraged, and remember that God has a plan and a purpose for your life. Trust in Him, and He will make your paths straight.