Cyrureth
Disciple of Prayer
People of God,
I am in desperate need of healing. My heart is heavy due to my husband's infidelity. It's been a year since I found out but it still feels as fresh as dew. I have lost my joy, peace and even faith in God. I was a firm believer who was seeking God for his grace towards my marriage. To hear that my husband cheated and may have possibly fathered a child in that adulterous relationship has got me shattered into pieces. I used to believe Scripture but now it seems the Lord favoured him who was in sin and left me who was actually pursuing Him. I served in church wholeheartedly because I believed serving brings forth a covering from the evil one. I am deeply hurt.
The issue of a child is killing me - I can't come to terms with it. Although the paternity has not been medically proven my husband has already accepted that the child is his and he seems not to have any intentions of verifying it. I am a living corpse. I feel let down by God because I always believed He would not let me down. The word says he gives us temptations that we can bear but I have failed to bear this one. Everyday, I live in the hope that it shall be revealed that the child is not his because my intuition tells me so. I feel stuck and am waiting for God to prove it so I can move on. The pain is unbearable and I just wish God would take it away.
I am in desperate need of healing. My heart is heavy due to my husband's infidelity. It's been a year since I found out but it still feels as fresh as dew. I have lost my joy, peace and even faith in God. I was a firm believer who was seeking God for his grace towards my marriage. To hear that my husband cheated and may have possibly fathered a child in that adulterous relationship has got me shattered into pieces. I used to believe Scripture but now it seems the Lord favoured him who was in sin and left me who was actually pursuing Him. I served in church wholeheartedly because I believed serving brings forth a covering from the evil one. I am deeply hurt.
The issue of a child is killing me - I can't come to terms with it. Although the paternity has not been medically proven my husband has already accepted that the child is his and he seems not to have any intentions of verifying it. I am a living corpse. I feel let down by God because I always believed He would not let me down. The word says he gives us temptations that we can bear but I have failed to bear this one. Everyday, I live in the hope that it shall be revealed that the child is not his because my intuition tells me so. I feel stuck and am waiting for God to prove it so I can move on. The pain is unbearable and I just wish God would take it away.