Anonymous
Beloved of All
He is also just marrying someone with indifference, and that's what I will end up doing too. Why are both of our lives messed up. We are good people and we deserve to be happy. I don't want to do that. He has already short listed 3 girls and will decide soon, and he is like choose someone and learn to live with them. He knows his mom and I get along well and like each other, but he wants this in his future wife and doesn't know how to check. He wanted someone who chooses him, but he is settling for girls whose parents want them to marry him. Everything is wrong. He is settling, and he is like fine, let's see. And I am settling too. Why? What can't we have what we desire. Why is the rest 50 years of life going to get screwed up because of six months of my idiocy. And he knows everything. Please work a miracle. I can't go through this again. I don't want to let anyone close to me, and I don't think I can love anyone I way I love him again. If he can leave me, anyone in the world can leave me. Don't let me live a loveless life filled with trust issues. Please.