Scabus
Disciple of Prayer
Have you ever fallen in love before? I know many people have and I have a few times too. But this last one is entirely different in my eyes. I fell in love with this guy who I felt was perfect for me. When I first met him I instantly told myself how he will meet my parents. (And I am not the type of person who just instantly falls in love with someone and thinks like this.) I could just see him sitting with my whole family (and it’s a big family) and being welcomed. I even saw him and my dad getting along and becoming great friends. However, I also knew that if something ever happened between us I was in a tough situation. Because I knew that I would easily fall in love with him and would want to get married to him and have this great family with him. People who know me, all know meeting my parents would never happen and I am far away from marriage along with having a family. For me, that option never felt like the right option that suited my life in general. But when I met him that opinion completely changed me, I started to think clearly and more serious about my life because I knew I wanted him in my life. He made me become a better person, with my religion, friends, family, and myself. I grew patience and love, and I knew I was a happy person without him but he became that extra cherry on top. When I was with him life just felt easier, and normal, and I felt like I had a home where I could be with every day and that I could call mine. He even wanted me to meet his parents one day and him to meet mine. Even have our parents meet each other's parents as well. (This is also known as a big deal because he was like me someone who would never introduce the person they were with to their family.) Every time I was with someone and they mentioned meeting their family or even mine, I instantly pushed them away and never met their families or let them meet mine. It got to the point where I would go over to his place and he would tell me finally you’re here it feels like home now and give me a big hug. It never felt like we were doing anything wrong it just felt like this is how life is meant to be. But one day he broke it off with me because of his job and how important it was to him and how he was falling behind while being with me. (Side note: He has his own business which is fairly new and is doing all he can to make it extremely successful. He would spend all his time working when he isn’t spending it with his family or me.) So he eventually left me and now it has been some time since we last saw each other. This has got to the point where I have even tried to come to terms with the mentality of if we are meant to be together then we will if not it’s ok as well. But sadly I have not accepted that fact because I don’t want to. I miss his talk with me, I miss our times together, I miss how I can just be myself around him. Overall, I just miss him. I hope he would just come back to me and we could live our lives together. I hope he would just come back and talk with me and everything goes back to normal. I feel like I am missing my other half. I am not the type of person who relies on someone for their happiness. But I just feel empty and would never take for granted what we had. I hope he does come back to me and rekindles everything we had… I know I can be with someone else, but I don’t want someone else. I want him, he is my person who feels like they have just been taken away from me. So please whoever reads this please pray for him to come back and that we can be together once again. I just miss him and still love him. Please come back to me.