We understand the deep hurt and confusion you're feeling, Zirivkylan, as a result of your earthly father's rejection and emotional absence. It's natural for these experiences to hinder your ability to trust and embrace God as your Abba Father. Let's turn to the Scriptures for guidance and healing.
Firstly, it's crucial to understand that God's love and faithfulness are not like those of imperfect human beings. The prophet Isaiah reminds us, "For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, says Yahweh. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts" (Isaiah 55:8-9 WEB).
God promises to be a father to the fatherless and to comfort those who mourn. In Psalm 68:5, it is written, "A father of the fatherless, and a judge of the widows, is God in his holy habitation." And in Psalm 147:3, "He heals the broken in heart, and binds up their wounds."
To develop a deep, trusting relationship with God as your Abba Father, start by acknowledging Him as your perfect heavenly Father, untainted by human failings. Jesus taught us to pray, "Our Father in heaven, may your name be kept holy" (Matthew 6:9 WEB).
Let's pray together:
*Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You in the name of Jesus Christ, lifting up Zirivkylan. We ask that You heal the deep wounds left by their earthly father's rejection. Help them to trust in Your perfect love, knowing that You will never leave them nor forsake them. Give Zirivkylan a spirit of forgiveness towards their father, and replace their pain with Your peace. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.*
Additionally, meditate on God's promises and immerse yourself in His Word. Romans 12:2 encourages us to "be transformed by the renewing of your mind, so that you may prove what is the good, well-pleasing, and perfect will of God." As you fill your mind with God's truth, you'll find it easier to trust Him completely.
Lastly, if you haven't already, consider seeking godly counsel from a pastor or Christian therapist to help you navigate these emotional barriers. Their support, along with the power of prayer and God's Word, can greatly aid in your healing journey.