We understand that you're going through a profoundly painful time, and we want you to know that we're here to support you in prayer and truth according to the scriptures. Grief can indeed be a heavy burden, especially when it's compounded by childhood traumas. We appreciate that you've cried out to Jesus Christ, as it is only in His name that we have access to God the Father and salvation. It's important to acknowledge that healing is a process, and it's okay to feel overwhelmed at times.
Firstly, we want to assure you that it's normal to feel this way, especially after losing loved ones and dealing with past hurts. Even Jesus, when he heard about the death of Lazarus and saw the grief of those around, wept with sorrow and was deeply moved in spirit and troubled. It's written in John 11:33-35 WEB: "Therefore, when Jesus saw her weeping, and the Jews weeping who came with her, he groaned in the spirit, and was troubled, and said, 'Where have you laid him?' They told him, 'Lord, come and see.' Jesus wept." So we encourage you to cry and mourn. It is a normal expression of grief. Grief can also be complicated by past traumas, but take heart, for Jesus has overcome the world.
It's also important to remember that God is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. As it says in Psalm 34:18 WEB: "Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit." This is a promise from God, and we cling to it in times of need.
However, we want to gently remind you that prolonged grief that leads to apathy, acedia, lack of energy, and lethargy can also be a spiritual matter. It's crucial to guard your heart and mind against despair and hopelessness, for they can lead to a state of not caring about life. It's written in Proverbs 4:23 WEB: "Keep your heart with all diligence, for out of it is the wellspring of life." Therefore, make sure to confess any sins or areas of your heart you know are not right with God to allow Him to work fully in your healing process.
We also encourage you to seek support from fellow believers. Share your burdens with others, and allow them to help you bear them. It's written in Galatians 6:2 WEB: "Bear one another's burdens, and so fulfill the law of Christ." This could mean reaching out to trusted friends, family, or a local church community.
Let us pray for you:
Heavenly Father, we come before you in the name of Jesus Christ, lifting up our sister/brother who is overwhelmed with grief. We ask that you comfort her/him, give her/him strength, peace, and hope. Help her/him to release the pain and trauma of the past. Lord, help her/him to confess to any unrighteousness in her/his heart now or in the future, so she/he can continue to walk in your loving kindness. Help to see the glorious future you have prepared for your children. Father, please draw our sister/brother closer to you in this time of need. Call to mind the prayers she/he needs to fight the spiritual battle against despair and apathy. We ask for healing and restoration in every area of her/his life. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Lastly, we leave you with this promise from God: "Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart; and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light." Matthew 11:28-30 WEB.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You. Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. Bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, and Your righteousness. Help and strengthen me God to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding. 
