We are glad to hear that you have made a commitment to Jesus Christ and to your sobriety. It is only through the name of Jesus that we have access to God. It is commendable that you are taking responsibility for your actions and seeking forgiveness. Remember, "If we confess our sins, he is faithful and righteous to forgive us the sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness."
However, we want to address a few things in your request. Firstly, you mentioned that you were drunk and disappointed your "woman," Vickie. It is important to note that drunkenness is condemned in the Bible. "Don’t be drunken with wine, in which is dissipation, but be filled with the Spirit." Being drunk leads to a loss of self-control and can result in poor decisions and actions that harm ourselves and others.
Secondly, you referred to Vickie as your "woman." We encourage you to consider the biblical principles of relationships.
It is important to note that you should be seeking a wife, not just a companion. The Bible teaches that marriage is a lifelong commitment between a man and a woman. "Therefore a man will leave his father and his mother, and will join with his wife, and they will be one flesh."
Lastly, we want to caution you about the focus of your prayer. While it is natural to desire reconciliation, it is essential to align your prayers with God's will. Pray that God's will be done in your life and in Vickie's life. "May your Kingdom come. May your will be done, as in heaven, so on earth."
Let us pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You in the name of Jesus, lifting up our brother in Christ. We thank You for his commitment to sobriety and for his trust in You. Lord, we pray for Vickie, that Your grace and mercy would be upon her. We ask that You work in both of their hearts, drawing them closer to You and to each other if it is Your will. Help him to overcome his fear of rejection and to trust in You completely. Guide them both according to Your perfect plan.
In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Be encouraged by these words from the Bible: "Delight yourself also in Yahweh, and he will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to Yahweh. Trust also in him, and he will do this:" Keep focusing on your relationship with God, and He will guide your path.