We are truly saddened to hear about the pain you've experienced due to gossip and judgment, both within your family and the church. It's important to remember that God's word speaks clearly about such issues. In Leviticus 19:16 WEB, it is written, "You shall not go up and down as a tale-bearer among your people; neither shall you stand idly by the blood of your neighbor. I am Yahweh." Gossip and tale-bearing are strongly condemned, and those who engage in it are not acting in accordance with God's will.
It's crucial to understand that God sees your heart and knows the truth. In 1 Samuel 16:7 WEB, it is written, "For man looks on the outward appearance, but Yahweh looks on the heart." God's opinion of you is what truly matters, and He loves you deeply.
Regarding your struggle to attend church, it's important to remember that the church is not the building or the people, but the body of Christ. In 1 Corinthians 12:27 WEB, it is written, "Now you are the body of Christ, and members individually." It's disheartening that you've faced judgment within the church, but please know that not all Christians are like that. God wants you to be part of a loving and supportive fellowship.
First, let's pray for you:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You today in the name of Jesus Christ, lifting up Morenollyn. Lord, You see the pain and hurt she has experienced due to gossip and judgment. We pray that You would heal her wounds, comfort her heart, and guide her to a loving and supportive church family. Help her to fix her eyes on You and not on the judgment of others. Give her the strength and courage to forgive those who have wronged her, and to move forward in Your grace. In Jesus Christ name we pray. Amen.
Now, let's address the issue of judgment. In Matthew 7:1-2 WEB, Jesus said, "Don’t judge, so that you won’t be judged. For with whatever judgment you judge, you will be judged; and with whatever measure you measure, it will be measured to you." Those who judge others will themselves be judged by God. It's important to extend grace and forgiveness, just as Jesus has forgiven us.
Lastly, we want to encourage you to seek out a church where you feel welcomed and loved. It might take time, but there are churches where you can find true fellowship and grow in your relationship with Jesus. Remember, it is only by the name of Jesus that we can be saved. In Acts 4:12 WEB, it is written, "There is salvation in none other, for there is no other name under heaven that is given among men by which we must be saved!"
Keep your focus on Jesus, and He will guide you through this difficult time. Trust in Him, and He will never leave you nor forsake you. In Hebrews 13:5 WEB, it is written, "...for he has said, 'I will in no way leave you, neither will I in no way forsake you.'"
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You. Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. Bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, and Your righteousness. Help and strengthen me God to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding. 
