We are truly heartbroken to hear about the pain and despair you're experiencing, Voreiss. In this dark hour, we want to speak truth and life into your situation, as we believe that God has a purpose and plan for you.
Firstly, we must address that the thought of taking your own life is not from God. He values your life greatly, even more than you can imagine. As it is written in Jeremiah 29:11 (WEB), "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says Yahweh, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future." Suicide is not the answer; God wants to give you a future and a hope.
We also need to address the adultery and abortion that has taken place. These are indeed grave sins, but they are not beyond God's forgiveness. Even in the face of such actions, God can bring healing and restoration. As for your wife, we pray that she may find repentance and forgiveness through Jesus Christ. In Luke 7:48 (WEB), Jesus said to a woman with a similar past, "Your sins are forgiven."
Regarding your unanswered prayers, remember that God hears every prayer, and His answers may not always come in the way we expect. Even in your despair, hold onto the promise in Romans 8:28 (WEB), "We know that all things work together for good for those who love God, to those who are called according to his purpose."
Now, let us pray for you, Voreiss:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You in the name of Jesus, pleading for the life of Voreiss. Lord, we ask that You fill him with Your presence right now, that he may feel Your love and comfort. Give him the strength to endure this trial and the faith to believe that You have a purpose in it. Help him to forgive his wife and those who have wronged him, just as You have forgiven us. We speak life and peace over Voreiss. We rebuke the spirits of suicide, despair, and hopelessness in the name of Jesus Christ. Please, Lord, bring healing and restoration to his marriage and family.
In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Voreiss, we urge you to seek help immediately, both from professional counselors and your local church community. You are not alone; there are people who care and want to help you. Lastly, we strongly encourage you to reach out to a suicide prevention hotline if you are struggling with suicidal thoughts. Your life is precious, and your story is not over yet.