Phaonalix
Disciple of Prayer
Good morning everyone, in my mind I was contemplating whether I should send this request, asking for help however by spirit I’m led to not carry this burden alone cause it will cause me to question my faith if I am alone. My sister is going through a tough time, we haven’t been close for the past three years ever since my grandmother passed away due to our spirits clashing since she’s so far from Christ right now in her journey I don’t even know when last she held the Bible or prayed. So I tried to reconcile with her this year because I was tired of our unnecessary drama and I wanted to let go of all this anger towards her for the pain she caused me because she really hurt me and my grandmother, however we told to forgive like how Christ forgave us, as I was grieving it was easier to shift my anger for my sister with the blaming her for the loss of my grandmother even if her behaviour does not contribute to her death. Anyways so my sister has been with this toxic boyfriend who used to be abusive physically but emotionally he still is and he cheated on her with another woman and is having a child while they already have two kids together and on top of that we recently found out that my sister is pregnant with a third so she’s definitely going through a very emotional rollercoaster, sad part is that this child does not deserve the lifestyle she will provide for him or her since my sister wasn’t even there for my two nieces I had to step up from a young age and she drank my grandmother's inheritance along with her friends who are no longer here so being financially stretched and having a newborn on the way is not really the ideal plan but I believe this could be a re-birth for my sister, where she keeps the baby as her own decision to change from her sinful ways and become a servant of Christ who will be obedient to the gospel of Christ and be a better mother to her children and for once care for me as her younger sister I am only 19 two kids are enough to stress me out, whilst studying, my journey with Christ as well isn’t as easy but I keep carrying my cross, I cannot afford (emotionally, physically and mentally also financially with my education inheritance that my grandmother left) to take care of another child on my own while she galavants with friends, I love my sister but she really does become a burden on me. I just want the best for her that all but she refuses to see it that’s when we argue. I am afraid she will use this baby as leverage to stay with this boyfriend because he obviously doesn’t need or want her anymore as he sees how she drank the money away and there’s no he can keep taking and there’s also no longer love or let’s rather say there wasn’t love in the first place if this man’s heart never showed to chase after the Lord’s love but she’s in-denial so please help me pray for my sister she needs to let go of this life she keeps hoping for and just pick her cross and follow Christ, I am willing to be there for her but only if Christ is the centre of it all because I can’t help someone who doesn’t see that she needs the help. She seems to prioritise friends more than her only sister she has got because we don’t have family anymore they all passed it’s just me and her but she takes me for granted. However I don’t keep score it just hurts when you’re an outsider to your sister while her friends seem to be more family to her rather than me. However I trust the Lord will take care of this situation and he will make a way. Thank you for taking the time reading my message, I really appreciate it 
God bless you all!
God bless you all!
