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Disciple of Prayer
Good morning! 2016 has been nothing short of a whirlwind. I realize some of it has been to pull things out of me, but it doesn't make it easy. My fiance, and father of my son and daughter on the way, decided he wanted to end our engagement after he confessed having feelings for someone else. This happened shortly after I found out I was expecting. We realized we weren't living God's way and wanted to get married. Now that's changed. He's regressed; he no longer comes to church, prays, goes out to the clubs and strip clubs more, work is suffering. This isn't the man who counseled with the pastor, prayed with and for me, and wanted a family. If God separates us, which I don't want for the family's sake, because we were trying to get it right, I know I'll be fine. I also have taken care of his 2 older children from a previous relationship and have been in their life longer than their biological mother (not that I ever wanted to replace her). I just hate to see him work so hard, to pursue me again, for me to see change, to see him regressing. His actions just don't affect him but everyone involved. I know I'm not perfect, but I just don't understand the sudden flip. My prayer is, if it is in God's will, he change him, for HIS sake and glory, and that we be on track again to be married as planned. If that is not the Lord's will, I pray he give me provision to provide for me and my children financially and emotionally. That their father still be in their life. That I won't lose our home. God has really blessed me and I know it could be worse. I'm not really in the worst position but I am scared. I'm afraid of the unknown, and the possibility of raising these kids alone. Of losing everything I prayed for. I also work in an industry where I could possibly work remotely if the right opportunity came along. It is my prayer, God bless me with the opportunity to work remotely so I can be home with my new baby. I also have maternity leave coming up, which unfortunately is unpaid. So I have that financial concern as well. All of this and loss of what I thought was coming back together. I didn't do everything right, and put the cart before the horse, but I'm trying. It's just a lot.
So I guess I'm asking for intercession on the healing and restoration of my partner, whether God wants to separate us or not, if not for us to get married and be under God's protection, to deliver him from spirits of sabatoge, destruction, lust, pornography, insecurity and depression, for provision when I go on maternity leave, for daycare costs that I can't afford now, increase in finances, a new position in my industry that will allow me to work from home, healing for my children and protection and unending love (ALL four of them), strength and protection from bitterness and anger.
So I guess I'm asking for intercession on the healing and restoration of my partner, whether God wants to separate us or not, if not for us to get married and be under God's protection, to deliver him from spirits of sabatoge, destruction, lust, pornography, insecurity and depression, for provision when I go on maternity leave, for daycare costs that I can't afford now, increase in finances, a new position in my industry that will allow me to work from home, healing for my children and protection and unending love (ALL four of them), strength and protection from bitterness and anger.