Wyrmald
Disciple of Prayer
Hi, I'm just writing to express what I'm thinking right now, because I have nowhere to complain. I thought it would be better if I killed myself, my problem would be solved, and I would no longer burden my husband. Before I die, I want to share my story. I am a manager at a private clinic. In the beginning everything was fine, and I always prayed for a good husband, and I married a good man and my husband's son-in-law and siblings. But bad luck befell me when I was cheated, and my savings ran out and I even had to go into debt with my relatives to pay off the threat. After 3 reports to the police, the scammer stopped bothering. But after that my finances were no longer precarious due to having to pay outstanding bank debts (car debt, house debt and credit cards). My husband also worked, but his salary is only used to pay the house rent while the house is under construction. He also finances the child's school and bears other expenses. In short, we work only to pay the debt and have no time to be happy. We and I kept praying but nothing happened. I tried my best to ask the other brothers for help, but no one wanted to help, because everyone had a problem. Debt collectors kept chasing me and my husband also started mocking, angry, throwing tantrums and that made me feel very upset. I'm a quiet person and don't like to show my feelings no matter what the problem is. I try to keep it to myself because I don't want to bother anyone. I hope the Bonus from my employer is 3 months and that will reduce the arrears. But unfortunately, it was only a month's salary and my plan to pay half the debt was not fulfilled. I am willing to go hungry because the car needs fuel to go to work. Food is always not enough and sometimes eating sometimes not, but 4 cats and 2 of them will give birth soon, I never let them hungry. (I hope they will be taken care of later) I love my family, my husband and my children but I can't deal with this anymore. I just want to dry my tears and if I die, all bank debts will be wiped away (That's what the bank told me). "To my husband, if you're reading this, I'm sorry for all my mistakes that made your life difficult. I've never held a grudge against you for anything that hurt me, and I will love you till my last breath. I really want our family to be happy like everyone else. , but I can't afford it. Please tell all my siblings, I'm sorry and I love them all. If there is a God, please help me in all my problems and save me from suicide.