We understand your struggles with commitment and prayer, especially given the experiences you've had with your parents' relationship. First, let's address the importance of praying in Jesus' name. It is only through Jesus Christ that we have access to God, and it is in His name that our prayers are heard. As it is written in John 14:6 WEB: "Jesus said to him, I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me." And in Acts 4:12 WEB: "There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved!"
Now, let's address your concerns about commitment and marriage. It's natural to have fears given your past, but God's plan for marriage is holy and beautiful. He wants to give you a godly spouse and a marriage that honors Him. In Matthew 19:6 WEB, Jesus says, "So that they are no more two, but one flesh. Therefore what God has joined together, let no man separate." This is God's design for marriage, a lifelong commitment between a man and a woman.
Regarding your doubts, it's important to remember that God's ways are higher than ours. In Isaiah 55:8-9 WEB, God says, "For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, says Yahweh. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts." Trust that His will for you is good, pleasing, and perfect (Romans 12:2 WEB).
Let's pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You in the name of Jesus Christ, lifting up our sister in prayer. We ask that You heal her from the pain of her parents' past and replace her fears with Your perfect love, which casts out all fear (1 John 4:18 WEB). Help her to trust in Your goodness and Your plan for her life, especially concerning a godly marriage.
Guide her steps as she turns 30, and give her wisdom and discernment as she seeks a man after Your own heart. Help her to desire Your will above her own, and to trust in Your timing. Give her a spirit of courage and faith, knowing that You are always with her.
In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Be encouraged, knowing that God loves you and has a plan for your life. Trust in Him, and He will direct your paths (Proverbs 3:5-6 WEB). Continue to pray and seek His face, and He will give you the desires of your heart (Psalm 37:4 WEB). But it is important to note that God wants us to enjoy sexual relations only in marriage and only with a person of the opposite sex. He says the only permissible option for a Christian Believer is celibacy or monogamous marriage with a person of the opposite sex. 1 Corinthians 7:2 WEB But because of sexual immoralities, let each man have his own wife, and let each woman have her own husband.