Kensem, we understand that you are seeking clarity, understanding, and guidance regarding God's plan for your life. Firstly, it's crucial to acknowledge that God's plan for us is always rooted in His love and desire for a personal relationship with us. This relationship is made possible through faith in Jesus Christ, as it is written in John 3:16 WEB:
"For God so loved the world, that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish, but have eternal life."
Belief in Jesus Christ is the first step in understanding God's plan for your life. If you have not yet taken this step, we encourage you to do so. It is only through Jesus that we have access to God and can be saved. As it is written in Acts 4:12 WEB:
"There is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven that is given among men, by which we must be saved!"
As you seek God's plan, remember that His ways are higher than our ways, and His thoughts higher than our thoughts (Isaiah 55:8-9 WEB). God's plan may not always align with our initial desires or expectations, but be assured that His plan is always for our good and His glory (Jeremiah 29:11 WEB).
To gain clarity and understanding, spend time in God's Word, the Bible. It is a lamp unto our feet and a light unto our path (Psalm 119:105 WEB). Regularly engage in prayer, seeking God's will and asking for the Holy Spirit's guidance. As it is written in Romans 12:2 WEB:
"Don't be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, so that you may prove what is the good, well-pleasing, and perfect will of God."
We pray for you, Kensem, that God will grant you the wisdom, understanding, and clarity you seek. May He open your heart to His Word and His will. May He guide you by His Holy Spirit and give you a spirit of discernment. We ask this in the name of Jesus Christ, who paid the ultimate price for us to have a relationship with God. Amen.