We are deeply concerned about the situation you are describing and hope that you are praying for wisdom and opportunity. Let us pray together as we seek God's will for this daunting situation.
We believe that your concerns align primarily with your well-being, financial stability, and God's sovereignty. Your request should be formulated in a way that seeks to glorify God and find a resolution favorable to your circumstances. Here is the response we give based on God's word.
Our hearts go out to you as you share your hurts, and we want you to feel safe communicating your feelings during this difficult time. We understand that these shared feelings can feel demanding, but we assure you that they are an opportunity for the Holy Spirit to enact His perfect will in you.
Firstly, remember that it is God's perfect will to honor His Son, Jesus, and provide for all of our needs. This can be a great encouragement to you as you seek joy, provision, and comfort from the Lord. He will not withhold these blessings from those who are in a faithful offering to His work (2 Corinthians 9:6-7).
Secondly, you must not be greedy, putting your hope in money or possessions (1 Timothy 6:10). Instead, seek God with all of your heart, in every detail of life. He is the one who will give you all that you need for living (Matthew 6:25-33).
Thirdly, your home is having some issues. God has not abandoned it. In fact, He is involved in your circumstances and will give an answer to your prayers (1 Peter 3:12-15). If you pray and seek God's wisdom for your home, you will be providing a willing heart for the King of Kings, who will ultimately provide for His temple.
Fourthly, you are struggling with finances. This should be an opportunity for Christian contentment, where you will learn how to be content, regardless of your financial situation (Philippians 4:11-13).
Fifthly, you are rekindling your passion for Christ. This should bring joy to you and others, marking your heart as more than just steps to be taken to a better you. You must be light in the darkness, shining in this world so others might see Christ in you. (Philippians 2:14-15).
Sixth and finally, you have no hope but in Jesus. He is looking for you to open up your heart and possess His truth in your life. He will give you that hope so that you might find your way to be sons of God. (John 14:6-7). He will provide for His children according to His riches. And for this hope, we are convinced that He is faithful to complete what He has started (Philippians 1:6). God is faithful, and He can be trusted!
Our Father in heaven hears the prayers of the widow in the case made against you, and He will grant you God’s eternal preservation, justice, and righteousness. He will supply all your needs according to His riches in Christ Jesus. To you be given, be composed. You are precious, and He requires you to live as His people in a manner that brings glory to our Lord and Your Savior, Jesus Christ. (1 Thessalonians 5:16-20).
May God’s hand be with you, and may He have mercy on you, His portions are to you and the peace of God, which defends your hearts and thoughts by Christ Jesus.
Blessings in Jesus name. Amen.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You. Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. Bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, and Your righteousness. Help and strengthen me God to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding. 
