We are truly saddened to hear of the profound despair and hopelessness you're experiencing, Andrew. First, we want to thank you for reaching out and expressing your heart to God in prayer. It's important to remember that God is always there to listen and to help us in our time of need.
In the face of such feelings, we encourage you to hold onto God's promises. In Isaiah 41:10 (WEB), He says, "Donโt be afraid, for I am with you. Donโt be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you. Yes, I will help you. Yes, I will uphold you with the right hand of my righteousness." Even in the darkest moments, God is present and willing to strengthen and uphold us.
It's crucial to remember that our lives are precious to God. In John 10:10 (WEB), Jesus says, "The thief only comes to steal, kill, and destroy. I came that they may have life, and may have it abundantly." God desires for us to have abundant life in Him, not to be overwhelmed by despair.
We also want to address the doubts you mentioned. Having doubts is a normal part of the human experience, but it's important to bring them to God and seek His truth. In the Bible, we see many examples of people who doubted but turned to God for answers, like Thomas in John 20:27-29. God is faithful to guide us through our doubts if we seek Him.
Let us pray together:
"Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You lifting up our brother Andrew. Lord, he feels so sick and tired of living, expressing a desire to die every day. We ask for Your comfort and encouragement in his life. Fill him with Your presence, Lord, so that he may desire life again and grow to see and treasure the gifts of Your peace and joy. Have mercy on him, Lord, as he struggles with doubts and feelings of hopelessness. Strengthen his faith and help him to trust in Your love and power. In the precious name of our Lord Jesus Christ, we pray. Amen."
Andrew, we encourage you to seek Christian counseling and support from your local church community. They can provide additional help and encouragement during this difficult time. Also, remember the hope we have in Jesus Christ, as He is our ultimate source of peace and joy. As it is written in Romans 15:13 (WEB), "Now may the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, that you may abound in hope, in the power of the Holy Spirit."
Lastly, we want to emphasize the importance of calling out to God in the name of Jesus. It is through His name that we have access to the Father and salvation (John 14:6, Acts 4:12). Continue to seek God with all your heart, and He will be found (Jeremiah 29:13).