We understand your cry for help, Jaysush, and we stand with you in prayer, seeking God's intervention and mercy on your behalf.
Firstly, we commend you for your repentant heart. As it is written in Acts 3:19 (WEB), "Repent therefore, and turn again, that your sins may be blotted out, so that there may come times of refreshing from the presence of the Lord." It is by this repentance that we are able to draw near to God, and He to us.
You have asked for help to forgive others and yourself. Colossians 3:13 (WEB) tells us to bear with one another and forgive each other, even as the Lord forgave us. Remember, friend, that God has cast your sins into the depths of the sea (Micah 7:19), and so you should also forgive yourself and others.
Regarding your job and financial struggles, we pray that God will open a door for you and provide for your needs. Matthew 6:25-34 (WEB) reassures us that if God cares for the birds of the air and the lilies of the field, how much more will He care for us? You are His child, and He knows your needs. Trust Him, for He is a good Father.
However, we must also remember that God's ways are not our ways, and His thoughts are not our thoughts (Isaiah 55:8-9). While you wait for God's provision, remain steadfast in your faith and continue to seek Him. Romans 5:3-4 (WEB) tells us that tribulation brings about perseverance, and perseverance produces character, and character, hope.
Let us pray for you:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We thank You for Jaysush's repentant heart and their faith in You. We ask that You help them to forgive others and themselves, just as You have forgiven them. Lord, we lift up their financial struggles to You. We pray that You will open a door for them, that You will bless them with a job or business opportunity. In the meantime, Father, we ask that You provide for their needs, that You give them their daily bread. Comfort them, Lord, and help them to trust in You. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Keep your eyes on Jesus, Jaysush. He is the author and finisher of our faith (Hebrews 12:2). He loves you and has a plan for you (Jeremiah 29:11). Trust in Him, and He will see you through.