Radiant Lion
Disciple of Prayer
Pray for me. I've been feeling down, going through alot watching my brother Donald go further and further into darkness. He doesn't act the same towards me anymore he becomes more and more unfriendly, more distant. He acts like I don't exist, acts like he doesn't know what to say to me. He hardly talks to me and when he does it's only about him wanting something from me. I feel used and taken advantage of by him. All these behavioral changes started to happen when he started messing around with a woman who is 22 yrs younger than him someone who he is too old to be with and he is having a very immoral relationship with. This goes on at work and he acts very weird when she's around for no reason. She's very antisocial and doesn't talk to anyone but him which is weird. I hate coming to work now because I have to be exposed to that everytime I come. There relationship is wrong he takes advantage of her and it disgusts me. I don't want to be around that on the job it causes me alot of stress. I feel I need to leave, to quit. It bothers my conscience every time I see them together because I know it's not right what they are doing. Every since he involved himself with her his behavior towards me has changed for the worse. And it makes no sense. I don't know if it's her trying to turn him against me or if it's him feeling animosity towards me because he feels like I don't accept him and her I don't know what it is. I've done so much for him and he never does anything for me even when he knows I'm in need he does absolutely nothing for me. I resent him, I dislike him, I feel anger towards him, I feel used and betrayed by him, I find myself wanting to fight him, make him feel like he makes me feel but I know that's not the way. I'm at a crossroads sometimes I feel I should walk away from him for good but I know it's not my will be done but God's will be done. Pray that God give me clarity in what to do in this situation, on how to move forward in this situation, to show me if I need to cut Donald off. Pray that God heal my heart, my mind from all of the hurt, pain of Donald's actions, behaviors and treatment of me, that God will fill in me forgiveness and the power to let go of everything he's done to me. Pray that God will get vengeance on my behalf against Donald for treating me in such an evil way but at the same time change his heart and mind, remove all the pride and arrogance and strip him down to rock bottom helping him realize that the path he's on is hurting himself, hurting people around him and hurting his brother me. Pray for change, deliverance, pray that God will cause Donald to get the professional help he needs, to let go of this immoral relationship with this woman, to walk away from her for good. Pray that God will heal and mend my relationship with Donald if he should be in my life.